jkmy: tHoUgHts & stUffs...

life partner....

2010-05-22T00:22:00.002+08:00

it's been 3 years since i blogged here..
wonders if anyone still reads this..
but anyway...
i won't say i'm feeling sad..
just wonder why i'm still single..
cos of my appearance?
i won't say i'm pretty..
but okay wat..
just a little on the plump side..
and it's cos i stopped training..
not because i eat a lot..
recently..
some friends got together..
weird thing is..
both are ppl i thot of not being just friends..
but then..i didn't know them that well either..
just thoughts...
so i guess i can't say much..
maybe cos i talk to girls more..
is there something wrong?
hmm..
God..teach me to see myself in a different light..
let me know that i can be loved too k? :)

too much favour

2007-11-03T10:12:00.000+08:00

i'm back after a long long time..hahah..been so busy with sch and all the projects that i have...and in the midst of them, Daddy God truly never fails to make me see that i have the favour of God!

During the one week where i had a quiz and 4 assignments due, i would say that i was so stressed up. Yet i found the time to go for Arrow, serve, and also work. People around me just so willing offer me help and advice on my assignments.. :)

and last week, with more assignments on hand and projects to rush...i was able to take time to go for Befrienders' Night..and God's favour never fails to be over me...Thanks Bernice and Louis to drive me home that night! I was really really tired that night, and I was so happy to hear even the offer the drive home..THANK YOU!!!

more favour-surrounded incidents were to come...on friday, me and a friend had to rush down to suntec from school to film local band-EIC. but at boon lay, there were thousands of ppl at the taxi stand! (ok..i'm exaggerating) ...anyway..so we decided to "hijack" a cab further up front..we realised there were many others doing the same thing..my friend 1st rxn was to call for a cab...but i decided to pray. :)and miraculously, a cab skipped all others and stop for me!!! my friend was amazed..and i happily told her.."haha..favour of God!"

also, my laptop's monitor was faulty last tuesday, and so, i brought it to the computer shop in NTU..the thing about the computer shop fujitsu repair service, is that they take ages! my friend only got back her laptop after 3.5 weeks..yet! i got back mine this thurs! hahah...it only took 1 week for me!! hahah...truly favoured...and the most amazing thing is that the favour just overflows and overflows...

in the midst of the 3 weeks of rushing projects, i had to go for internship interviews..for one of the company, Nine-V Entertainment, i would say it was a smooth sailing interview..i liked the environment..and most imptly, i think i was the only one applying there so i will most probably get it...as for the other company, Peachblack, i was worried cos the other ppl gg for interviews were the "zai" ppl in my course! and also when i went for the 1st interview, the female boss was quite stern and as she looked at my showreel, she started giving advice on how to improve..wah! i felt disqualified...

and yet! i was the only one offered the 2nd interview...hahha...truly, favour surrounds me like a shield!

and now..i am put in the dilemma of which company to choose..haiz....haha..too much favour really...

God is my provider

2007-09-19T01:49:00.000+08:00

Praise Jesus! Praise Jesus!
I got my bursary!! $800 MOE bursary!!
my school fees is settled!!
:):):):):):):)

whenever a new semester starts, i'll start worrying about the school fees..whether what i'm trying to earn is enough to cover the amount, whether my pay will come in time to pay for the school fees, whether there are other ways i can pay the amount..and obviously, it applied to this sem too..so for the past 7 weeks, i've been wondering if i can pay...

i had everything planned out months ago when last sem ended..that i'll work at RGBC and G+P so i'll have more money saved up..that i'll save the $200 that the govt gave to pay..but when sch started, i realised i never calculate in my transport fees and textbook fees..and i duno what's with year 3 books..they're all like $40+... :(

so..the money started depleting..how? i cannot work much cos there's so many projects..and even if i work a lot..can i cover the amount? Praise Daddy God that He gives angels charge over me...He sent me an angel in the form of Weiyi to tell me to apply for bursary! i was always hesitant to apply for bursary cos i thought there was an income requirement to apply..but when i search for info..the requirement was never seen..but who cares right? so under the encouragement of Weiyi, i applied...

i was super happy when i was scheduled for an interview for the bursary..but then..Oh, me of little faith..i told no one except Yuanzhen cos the timing for the interview clashed with the class i'm taking with her..

anyway..on the day of the interview, i was filming the whole morning, then tutorial, then without even time to eat, i went for the interview...there was nothing on my mind except shld i buy something 1st before running to class after the interview? hahah..the only thing i thought of was to pray for favour and i went in. The interview was scheduled to be 30mins, but it was less than 10 mins..and it was full of nonsense answers..hahha..why? cos i was so unconvinced by my own words..i was thinking..God, if i ever get this..it's really You..

i was very convinced that i will not get the bursary, but on thursday at BS, though pastor was talking a lot about the new building, but he was essentially talking about finances..and i know that i know God was working in my life again..(haha..not like He stopped la..but i felt that ma..)

when pastor prayed the closing prayer that Daddy God will bless us so that we can be blessings unto the new building project, i spoke out (not very loudly) that "Daddy God, that bursary is mine." and Daddy God is truly faithful..

today, when i check my ntu mail in the morning, there was only the E-Bill sent out telling me the amt i need to pay..so i was thinking, "haiz..i really didn't get..i need to find plans to solve the problem." so i sms Amber to tell her that i need to collect my last month's pay asap..

but after class today, while i was waiting for Xuelin to finalise our video, i checked my mail and i shouted out loud! hahha..so glad there was no one else in the room..

this was what i read:
"Dear KOO MEI YAN JOANNA
MOE Bursary AY07/08 - $800/-
We are pleased to inform that you have been awarded the above bursary for the academic year............."

!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Amazed! Amazed! Amazed!

i guess it's always in me to feel that i dun deserved to be blessed..
and that i dun deserved to be blessed like i had been..

there's truly no no else like me..
who can be a CEO at prelims and become AAB at actual A levels?
who can have C5 for GP and get into Communication Studies?
who can without applying, get to pay sch fees with her edusave money?
who can go to HM6 fully paid for?
who can now, having all 4 other family members working, yet get a bursary?

though i always doubt and have no faith, Jesus is my faith.
and He made me time and again His testimony of His goodness and His provision..
:)

faithful daddy god

2007-06-09T21:20:00.000+08:00

Daddy God is truly faithful!!!
i've been worrying over my results..
but now i look back and find myself silly!
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CS203 - Newswriting and Reporting --- B+
CS221 - Broadcast Journalism --- B
CS291 - TV Practicum --- P
CS816 - Information Literacy --- S
AAH183 - Film and Propaganda --- A-
MB101 - Accounting --- B+

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Like always, Daddy God gave me results that i'm not worthy of...
modules that i struggled with..
modules that i totally slacked in..
hahah..yet they're those that got the best results..
:) i'm so happy to see these results...
cos i know then that i'm not guilty to be a testimony..

always..i wanna tell my frens that i dun worry cos i have a REAL God..
but often i hesitate cos i duno how to appear like a child of God when my results are atrocious..
but Daddy had provided me the good results...
i can proudly show them the work of my God!
that even though i spent lots of time serving God..
my work will be good..cos He is with me..
:)

Praise Jesus!!!

walking everyday with Jesus

2007-04-06T00:17:00.000+08:00

I realised that i've been getting tired easily these few weeks..
and yet..it's not like i'm doing A LOT of things..
but i haven't been looking that matter until yesterday..

as i got out of my hse to travel all the way to NTU again..
this thought came to me..
"Jo, why are you going everyday so unhappy and tired?"
then it hit me that this is not the way to go about my life..
i shld be reigning in this life..

And so..for the 1st time in a long while..
i happily went to sch to get camera for shooting..

and what a way Daddy lavished on me..
He poured down the rain..so the weather was cool when i started filming..
(though it's very warm in the greenhouse [i was filming there] )
and the nice person in charge of the greenhouse gave us a tour..
though i wasn't very intrigue by the horticulture & aeroponic system...
I'm super amazed by the butterflies that were behind the greenhouse!!

it was not a very big place where the butterflies were..
but there's quite a number flying about..
and they're pretty!!! :):):)
so nice to see Daddy's beautiful creations..

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Everyday that i wake..Lord, teach me to thank You first..
Everything that i do..Lord, teach me to trust in You..
Every lesson that i go..Lord, teach me to understand easily..
Everything that i see..Lord, teach me to see their beauty..
Every person that i meet..Lord, teach me to treat them like You will..
Every breathe that i take..Lord, teach me to know it's given by You.

Traces of You

2007-04-02T00:54:00.000+08:00

Traces of You

As i walk along the roads..
I see the birds, the trees and the flowers..
I see the cars that drove pass..
I see the roads that i passed by..
As i listen to music while i walked..
I got reminded of You..

As i take the MRT..
I see the people walking in and out..
I see the mother playing with her child..
I see the child exclaimed at the mandane MRT ride..
As i read my books while i smiled..
I got reminded of You..

As i take my favourite bus rides..
I see the rainbow in the sky..
I see the old lady waving to her friend and moved over..
I see the familiar buildings i go pass..
As i read the SMSes ppl sent me..
I got reminded of You..

As i sit canteen A or in school...
I see the undergrads rush here and there..
I see the usual tables and chairs..
I see the life that people are living..
As i eat lunch with the cg..
I got reminded of You..

As i sit in service..
I see my cousin singing on stage..
I see my leaders serving communion..
I see my pastors enjoying themselves as they preached..
As i read the lines in my bible...
I got reminded of You..

Everywhere that i go..
Everything that i see..
Every sound that i hear..
Every smell that i touch..
They all remind me of You..
They are all traces of You..

2007-02-18T22:35:00.001+08:00

was waken up this morn by my mum who likes us (me n my sisters) to take our hongbaos before she leaves the house for church..so i climbed out of bed..and washed up..

like always..i started saying all the cliche words to my grandma n parents..
and my grandma n dad said the same back...

but my mum changed!

instead of normal 学业进步 & 身体健康 phrases..
my mum prayed for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AMEN! AMEN! AMEN!
i was so amazed...

Thank You Daddy God..
that she knew to put you 1st..
even when i've forgotten...
and remind me that all these i have..
is cos of You! :)

new year's eve

2007-02-18T00:58:00.001+08:00

today..i woke up early to help my mum prepare for reunion dinner..
my grandma lives with me..so my dad's brother n sister n their family come to my hse..
in the afternoon..i finally have time to pack the room i share with my 2 sisters..
lol..my eldest sis haven pack in a year..so there's so many things to throw away..
then the time comes for reunion dinner..

i had the priviledge to say grace for the whole family..
and thou i said really simple things cos it's been very long since i said grace in chinese..
but God answers exceedingly abundantly above all that i can ask or think..
besides praying for the sanctification of our delicious dinner..
i prayed that we'll have a joyous and wonderful time..
and we really did.

throughout dinner..no major arguement came forth..
neither did small arguments..
there were a few opposing views..but nothing fatal...
and after dinner...the most HAPPENING thing...
hahah..we decided to go catch a movie..
(we went to watch "Just Follow Law" --> good show..fann wong's acting improved! )

Woohoo! family movie outing!!
hahah..there's 10 of us gg..excluding my grandma who does not want to go..
it's such an unbelievable thing!
i think my dad and his siblings have never catch a movie together in their entire lives..
and with the things that had happened in my family..(i pray they never happen again..)
this is truly Daddy God's work.

None of me..
All of HIM!

He really knew what i hope to see..

i love my 21st birthday present already..
HARMONY AT HOME..
from the very 1st KBOX outing with my immediate family..
to this 1st movie outing with my closer family members..
WOW!

thank You Daddy God..
i believe that there will only be more n more "goodest" days to come.. :)

2007-02-08T06:28:00.000+08:00

it's 6.20 am as i start typing this blog entry..
why am i up so early? i didn't...
cos i didn't sleep at all......
now i have the same concern as lydia..
i cannot go to sleep..cos if i do..i wont wake till like 5463789098766 hours later..
hhahah..ok..exaggerating..i'll probably wake up before 12noon if i sleep now..
but i had to be in sch by 830am for filming....
so hallelujah...
God gives me strength to focus and pay attention in ALL classes from 830 to 530 today...

so..what made me stay up all night?
countless assignments.....
and partly my own fault..
the spirit of procrastination is so big in my life right now...
i'm doing last minute work again..
Jesus!! i dowan!!! Help!!!

but on a lighter note...
as i was waiting for my aunt to pick me up from the nat'l lib today..
i decided to treat myself to a bottle of snapple..
and on the bottle cap, it wrote:
"A rainbow can only be seen in the morning or late afternoon."

my first thot was that no. if i wanna see a rainbow, regardless of the time..
Daddy God will let me see it..heh...
but then..a thot came into me also...
i remember pastor said something about the timing of the offerings,
and i think the timing of when Christ was crucified...
it's supposed to be at 9am, and then 3pm right?
althought 3pm dun register as late afternoon in my mind..lol..
but i thot that HEY!! what if it is.
then...
everytime when God shows us rainbow, it's reminding us of Jesus' death for me n you..

2007-01-17T17:20:00.000+08:00

haha..i've decided to just update a bit so that my dear jane can read it all the way in US..hee..
anyway..sch have started for a week and a half..
i can only say..Praise Jesus..
my worry for my 1st week is gone..i thot the screw up in the system is really gonna give me a super terrible timetable..but God watches over His favourite girl..
and i got most of the modules that i wanted..
in fact, i got them all..just not the exact tutorial that i wanted..
and my worry that i was super slack this sem is taken away too..

at the end of last week, i thot i only have 16AUs..
what a slack sem ya? i wanted to add another module, but i din wanna settle for anything less than what i wanted..i dun believe that i need to take up modules that i dun like just to add in AUs..
and so, i told Daddy God.
and He truly answers.

i found out that i got the NIE module that i wanted..
it's really God working for me cos i know it's not up to me..
i did in the natural wat was required of me, to appeal online..
and then i just rest.
but me getting the module is supernatural cos my friend appealed also..
but she didn't get it.
i really believe that it's His favour upon my life. :)

so much blessings is happening to me..
blessed to go HM6 last dec..
blessed with $30 from someone anonymous..
blessed with my NIE module..
day in and day out..i know i'm blessed.

so much, i can't contain it
so much, i gotta give it away
Your love has taught me to live now
You are more than enough for me!

irritated n frustrated!!!

2007-01-09T02:03:00.000+08:00

arrgghh! it's e 1st day of sch and it's screwed up for me..

the STARS system totally screw up for CS yr 2 students..

everyone who hv more than 60 AUs are considered yr 3s..

it doesn't pay for us to be hardworking in e past 3 sems..

now ALL of us did not get our electives..

and we cannot even add/drop cos yr 3s are on attachments this sem..

so there's a cap on e no. of AUs yr 3s can take..

so whatever we wanna add is considered overloading..

then e supposed add/drop for yr 2s also cannot cos in e stupid system we're yr 3s..

so i'm left with 10 AUs this sem..

hallelujah..i'm studying AIR this sem man...

even if e system is up..e electives we want also gone..

seeing e vacanies from 10 drop to 0 but we cannot add is frustrating!

and it doesn't seem like e sch is doing much to help..

my whole timetable is screwed up...

IRRITATED!!! arrggghhh!

Daddy God, i really need a miracle now to let me get e modules i want in e timeslots that i want!!!

HM6 (Part 3)

2006-12-26T07:40:00.000+08:00

i can only say that God is awesome..

being in my 1st HM camp was truly a life-changing experience..

God's presence was just so close i can feel His breathe..

i went to camp blessed, but empty..i honestly din feel excited in e deepest of me..

in my mouth, i can say all that is spiritually correct to you..

but deep inside..i was down..i wont say that i was broken..but was just down..

like i was in the lowliest of the lowliest..hahah...

i was so lacking in energy..i was amazed i can still talk to ppl..

that 1st night, God sees that i need to be restored..

i think if He didn't restore me the 1st night, i would hv not enjoyed camp as much cos i'll be so dead..

but God is God.

the energy that i tried all means n ways to regain in e past 1 month prior to HM6..

He restored it in one night..

the next day..u can say that jo is mad..hahah...

i was just cheering n being so hyper by myself..

hahah..and just "自high"-ing with my beloved ms koh..

but that was supernatural energy flowing out of me..

it just dun seem to run out..and i knew that it wasn't me..

throughout the camp..the 4 sessions of ministering..

God really answers what u asked..i came to camp with no expectations..

not bcos i doubted..but i din know what to ask for..

but after i was restored..i knew what i ask..God will answer..

i shared with a few and my cg what my expectations were and the answers that God gave me..

i thank God for the leaders who prayed and spoke into my life..

i may not know what they mean currently..

but i know Daddy God will give me the abilities to understand them later on..

all in all..i knew that lives have been changed. i knew mine did.

of those who shared with me..thank you for sharing..

of those who heard me share..thank you for listening..

it's cos of these sharings that i am even more amazed by Daddy's mighty hand..

P.S. Right thinking brings about right feelings.

*** i'll remember that. :) ***

HM6

2006-11-27T10:15:00.000+08:00

I AM GOING TO HM6!!! AND I'M BLESSED EVEN BEFORE I GO!!!

being in campus for ard 2.5 yrs..
this HM6 is actually my 1st HM cos e last camp was ben-gen camp..
& back then..i haven entered e NTU family...
so i was so looking forward to e camp..
way before HM6 was even officially announced..

but then..as HM6 registration opens...
i ask God where to get the $220...
by my own efforts...
i save n save....
and think of more ways to save up...
and then...
registration closed.

we were not able to get a room cos we din hv e cheque...
thou placed on e waiting list...
it was still a :( thing cos we were NOT confirm going...

sometimes i wonder do i doubt God...
but i decide to just believe that with whatever tiny as mustard seed faith i have..
to just "Amen" with dot n yz that we dun hv to worry...
God will bring us there...
i can only be amazed by dot's faith when she tell us that Jesus had already brought us there..
she said that she can see us screaming n having e time of our lives there in OUR ROOM!!!
for me..heh...i can only offer "amen".

but all we can do is wait.

as time passes...e camp comm ppl called yz..
she's in! i was so happy for her!
but what about me?
i still can only wait to get in...
my greatest concern was not e finances anymore...
but if i can go for camp...

as more time passes...they called dot..
she's in too! i was happy for her too..
but can i be real here? 50% of me was thinking..
"God..why is it not me?!"
hahah...then i thot to myself:
why tim ang placed my name last among e 3 of us in e waiting list..
why do i have to wait so long?
what if e cut off line was at dot? then me lei?
i can only tell God that i'll be so satisfied to just go for camp..

as more n more time passes...yingling finally called me!!
she called me on sat morning...
i was so so so so happy!!!
haha...just exclaimed out loud to lindsay, amber n weiyi who were with me at kbox...
even told them that nothing can make me sad that day...
haha..but that's quite wrong...
cos i realised e stupid devil then start to play in my mind again...
think that's why i was so sad n felt so lousy b4 united concert...
was really thinking why am i feeling sad when i shldn't be!
i'm gg for HM6 lei!!!! hahhaa....well..i also duno why i was so emotional yesterday...

but anyway...i was to pass yingling my idemity form n e cheque today...
so yesterday i asked lindsay to help me write e cheque n i'll pass her e money...
but u know what? i dun hv $220 in my bank...
so i sms my 2nd sis to transfer e $100 allowance she gives me by today...
all i was doing..was out of my own effort...

but God dun want that..
He brought me to camp..He'll pay for it..
b4 3rd svc today..yingling told me that someone had already paid for my camp fees..
i was SHOCKED!!!
hahah...think i was so stunned that yingling asked me "are you ok?"

God is truly so so so so so awesome!!!
all i asked was to get into camp...
but God ALWAYS answers exceedingly abundantly above all that i can ask or think...

i'm so so so so blessed!!!
hahah...i was so touched that i just cried.
haha..but this time..crying cos of over-happiness...
lindsay ask me "how does it feel to hv someone pay for ur fees?"
me "i duno..haha...just wow! wow! wow!"
it's something that i cannot describe...
i felt that i can just float cos i was so "high"
i can only say..
[WOW!!!!] to the power of infinity! :)

anyway...just wanna say that God is truly a good God..
He knows that i cannot..
no matter how much i work..
i can never pay all that i am supposed to..
if i pay all... i think i'll just have to live on drinking plain water..
but everytime i have a financial need...
God is there to meet it..
He may seem slow..but He's always...ALWAYS on time!

i'm so so so so so so so blessed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and you know what's e best thing?
i remembered that i told God that e very start b4 registration even opens..
that how nice if someone was to bless me with e camp fees..
i mean i'm sure everyone wants that...it's like every campers' desire..hahah...
and i only TOLD God..maybe just a 5 sec prayer..
so i was so amazed that God remembered...
and it all happened so suddenly!

There is a word that i want to deposit in you through God's word that you can hang onto for the rest of your life, and i hope you never forget it. it is the word "suddenly".
Sometimes when you have lived with something in your life a long, long time, you get to the point that you can limp along with it and go on about your business at the same time. But God heard those prayers that you prayed about the situation, and He remembers them. Then suddenly He move in your life and deliver you in a way that will just amaze you. i believe we need to expect God to move suddenly!
-- From Joyce Meyer's Expect a Move of God in Your Life...Suddenly!

i bought this book a few months back i think...and i was telling Daddy that i wanna experienced that "suddenly" thing..and WOW! He is truly amazing...my financial situation really turned around so suddenly! i felt so rich currently! hahaha....nv felt so rich before...
and not only in e natural..but also cos i know i am rich inside...

i can only love You from the inside out.

here..i just wanna say..
Thank You Daddy God.
You are truly amazing...
and You are the only one who can make me feel what i'm feeling now...

thank you to the one who blessed me..
i duno who you are..but i know you are blessed..
ever so richly..
cos only when you are blessed can you be a blessing..
and i'm sure that you are giving out of e abundance that you received from Daddy God.

to those who are trusting God for things..not just in finances...
i wanna encourage you all to just continue trusting..
wait on the Lord..
and dun wait with the "i'll just sit here and be passive" kinda attitude..
wait EXPECTANTLY!!!
to wait is to expect, to look for, to look for with a view to being shown favour.
God said in Psalms 30:5...
His favour is for LIFE!

:)

double bind

2006-11-17T01:06:00.000+08:00

A double bind occurs when one individual communicates 2 level of messages to another: "when these 2 levels of messages both qualify & conflict each other, the other person is faced with an impossible situation. He cannot respond to either level without violating a prohibition at the other level, and so he is wrong whatever he does." Double-bind situations occur in parent-child and in boss-employee relationships, for example:

Let us say that a child perceives that a parent is angry. The parent denies that she is angry and insists that the child deny it also. Should the child believe his own senses or believe the parent? If the former, the child maintains a sense of reality but loses the relationship with the parent. If the latter, the child maintains the relationship but distorts reality.

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the above passage is actually from one of my textbook (which i'm nv going to touch again!)..
was reading this passage for the first time just a few days back (which explains why i can only ask for mercy for this module..haha...) when i was reminded of THE situation i was in a few weeks back..i dun think it fits fully into this situation..but what i experienced then was double-bind i think...进退两难...double-bind can happen to any 2 ppl i guess...

why are humans so complicated?

i hate 201

2006-11-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

Jesus, You have conquered 201 for me on the cross 2000 yrs ago..
i shall just let go and rest in You..
let Your peace fill me, that i'll stop thinking about it...

i've never been so stress in my life before i think..
not even before O or A levels...
201 - Communication History and Theories
it's a killer...
so many ppl to study..so many theories to memorise...
and the worst part..i dun see the link between them..
haiz.............................................................

because of it..think i was an extremely grouchy person...
i duno why...i just snapped at my parents n my grandma on monday...
after coming back from studying w mag..
and meeting with e cluster ambs & coach lynne..
i wanted to print something..
then realised that even with the new black ink cartridge..
i cannot print cos e other colors are out..
was so irritated by the printer..
so i just kept complaining n complaining...
i also duno why...
when my parents n grandma offered to give me $$$ to buy..
i just snapped at them and said dun need...
why? cos i know they dun hv much too...
but i cannot help but snap at them..

arrggghh!!!! was so angry with myself..
so angry..i cried...
cried at myself for being irritating...
cried while asking God why He din stop me..
cried & yet complain to others that i'm being irritating..
cried while complaining to Him...

but i thank You Lord...
for having yuanzhen to remind me that there is no more condemnation..
that God dun see my bad n rude behaviour...
He sees Christ...
Christ, my perfect Jesus :)

Behind Enemy Lines

2006-11-05T18:28:00.000+08:00

caught this movie on Ch 5 yesterday night..called Behind Enemy Lines. I was never one who love war films, but this show was really good. Why? cos besides the action, state of the art effects, and politics, there was heart in it. After watching this show, i cant help thinking how similiar the situation is to us and Daddy God before Christ came.

Here's how to story goes..

Lieutenant Chris Burnett (Owen Wilson) is a top naval aviator who is frustrated that fragile geo-politics have kept him from what he knows best: flying F/A-18 Superhornet jets into combat. ‘We’re watching, not fighting,’ he tells Admiral Reigart (Gene Hackman), who thinks Burnett hasn’t really learned what it means to be a soldier.
In this, we are Burnett, and God is Reigart. When we know a skill, we think we're super good at it, and forgot that Daddy God is the one who gave us that talent/taught us the skills.

During a routine reconnaissance mission, Burnett photographs something no one was meant to see and both him and his pilot were shot down.
I can't help thinking that it's us having eaten from the tree of knowledge of good and evil. We came to know something that we were not meant to know. and bcos of knowing, we were being attacked by the devil.

Burnett witnessed the execution of his pilot, and flee when he was discovered. Trapped behind enemy lines, Burnett struggles to survive the relentless pursuit of a ruthless secret police enforcer, a deadly tracker, and countless hostile troops.
After having knowledge, we're trapped or within this stupid boundary where lots of evil spirits are looking for us and trying to bring us down.

With time running out, Reigart makes the wrenching decision to set aside the rules of the tightly-controlled world in which he operates and risks his career to launch a renegade rescue mission to save the life of one soldier.
This is a picture of God. Reigart sacrificed his high ranking position. God sacrificed His Son. Except our Daddy God is obviously more amazing. Reigart was demoted(i think so la..), but God, by sacrificing Jesus, not only did He not lose the heavenly command, He took back the key of this world.

Anyway, in the show, there was this scene where Burnett was trying to escape when he fell into a large muddy pit(or swamp or whatever la..basically it's where lots of bodies were dumped. they had been killed by the ruthless police enforcer & his troops) when the military troop was closing in on him. At the same time, back in the navy ship, Reigart and some of the crew was able to see Burnett as a figure on the radar screen, and also the military troops behind. And when Burnett fell, there was no movement. So they were like "why is he not getting up? is he shot? they're closing in on him."
--- what pastor said today reminded me of this scene. "when he was still a great way off, his father saw him..." Burnett was alone and afraid, he din know Reigart can see him. That's like us. We think we're all alone to handle stuff, we fear and worry, but God sees. Daddy God sees what i'm going through. And the best thing is our Daddy God is God. Reigart can do nothing but watch. Daddy God reaches out and rescue us.---
anyway..to conclude this scene, the military troops din not see Burnett as he covered himself with the dead bodies. All they stabbed and shot at were the dead bodies. So Burnett survived that obstacle.

also, at the scene where the rescue team gathered before setting off to rescue Burnett, Reigart said this, "Let go get our boy back!" In the film, when Burnett 1st contacted the ship, Reigart called him as no. 6 cos that's Burnett's plane no. But when Reigart learned that Burnett was alone, when he slowly realised the danger that Burnett was in, he no longer address Burnett as no. 6, but instead calling him as "my boy". For us, it's even more warming, cos God always sees us as His sons & daughters. so at that scene when he said to "get our boy back", i can imagine God telling Jesus and Holy Spirit,
"Let's go get my beloved boy/girl back."

treasure those you love

2006-10-31T20:06:00.000+08:00

As i sat at the admission office waiting for the nurse to come down & bring my grandma up to the ward, i looked at these 2 women in my life...my grandmother, and my 2nd sister.
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To me, my grandma is always 69 years old. Not for any particular reason but because that was the answer i heard the last time i asked. Since then, i haven bear in my heart to remember her birthday, or to celebrate with her. How unfilial right? But as i hear the nurse ask her today, my grandma is already 73 this year. What have i been doing this 4 years? i duno.. What has she been doing this 4 years? still doing her best to take care of this family, taking care of the house, cooking meals for us, giving us her all willingly. as i look at her, she looked older, weaker, fragile. tears came, but i pulled them back, as i know she doesn't want to see me cry. Gently, i lay my head down on her shoulders. To her, she must be thinking: "my dear granddaughter, you should not have come, you should have stayed home to sleep longer. You still got homework to do. why come with me, this old woman?" But to me, i wasn't trying to catch up with sleep, i just want to snuggle up to this familiar figure, to feel her warmth against my face, to know that i can still be close to her. but i couldn't bring myself to say it out loud that i love her, or to openly hug her. maybe cos it was the way i was brought out. open expressions of affections is not in this family. but i know she knows that i love her. why? cos i know Jesus, You will let her know. She will feel it in her spirit.

for the 1st time yesterday night, i took holy communion with my family. the 7 of us - me, my 2nd sis, my mum, my aunt, my cousin, my uncle & my grandma. as my aunt shared about God's protection from Psalms 91 to my grandma, i looked at my mum and my grandma - the two women who sometimes drove me to want to leave the hse. but yesterday, i saw that though they are always arguing about the things in the house and the lifestyle that we're living, my mum loves my grandma too. trying to win on the outside, but both are soft at heart.

with prayer & taken the holy communion, i believe that my grandma is healed in Jesus' name. though she looked fragile to me, she was the most active in the ward. as i look around, one patient cannot walk properly, another is always fussy and complaining, another just sleeps. but my grandma? she looks at what the nurses are doing, she talks to complete strangers who are visitors to the other patients. she talks to the other patient, like she's there to visit and not like another patient. i can see so evidently the difference between a daughter of my awesome Daddy God, and those of the world. if my grandma wasn't wearing the patient robes, i think no one can tell that she's sick. amazing ya? that's my strong grandma. :)
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as i sat watching my grandma tour the ward, i see my 2nd sister trying to catch some sleep beside me. this amazing woman, has a noble calling from the Lord. Called to be a nurse, i believe the Lord helps her to take great care of her patients. how i know? haha..cos she's always complaining that the head nurses always make her the in-charge. what does that mean? it means that she's capable. that her superiors know that she is a good nurse, that she's well capable to take good care of that patients and also, that unknowingly, they've displayed favour to her. though she complains, i can feel that she enjoys being the noble nurse that she is, and that favour is overflowing in her life.

as the hours pass by in the ward, i sat thinking that i'm wasting my time cos i wasn't doing anything productive. my grandma is not going for staging today, all that was scheduled was a little blood test. so why am i still there? cos my sister wanted to wait till the doctor comes to see my grandma and do the blood test. why? cos she herself works in an ocology ward, and she doesn't want my grandma to be poke at numerous times by unskilled nurses. according to her, my grandma has good veins, meaning it's easy to draw blood. but she fears that the nurses will hurt my grandma. so thou she dun work at KKH, she will want to be the one drawing my grandma's blood if she sees that the nurses/doctors cannot draw the 1st time they poke with the needle. Twice will be the maximum times anyone is going to poke my grandma. that's how sweet my sister is. to put herself in my grandma's shoes and not want her to be hurt.

though only 1 year older than me, she contributes most to this family. helping my grandma pay her insurance, helping my mum pay the bills, giving me some pocket money, that's just the material side. being a nurse, all the adults in the family just assumes that she knows everything about health. they ask her to be with my grandma when she 1st was diagnosed. working long hours at the hospital never stop her from going straight down to KKH to hear what the doctor says about my grandma. willingly, she hear what the doctor says, and she does all the stuff there is for nurses to do. not that she dun trust the nurses, but bcos she can give undivided attention to my grandma. that's how amazing my noble sister is.

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Thank you Lord, that You are our health. Whatever the doctor says are just lies. Tmr when grandma goes for staging, Lord, i believe that You will cause the doctor to be amazed. There will no longer be those lying symptoms cos You had already healed her. The divine exchange had already taken place at the cross 2000yrs ago! Thank you Jesus.

finally ok!

2006-10-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

yeah! finally got my blog up n running again..
there was something wrong with the tagboard that's causing my blog to not load fully everytime..n i was unable to publish fully my blog also..
but now it's ok! :)

hee...i'm like some little girl..
but i'm easily happy with small little things..

just do little acts of service..
i will be happy even if you dun put much thots into it..

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2006-10-29T15:11:00.000+08:00

why are u condemning me?
stupid devil! get out of my head..
stop making me think that he is condemning me..

God!!!
help me..
i dowan to feel bitterness towards him..
i dowan to be uneasy towards him..
i still want to have this friend..
i want to give him respect as You deem fits..
but why is he telling me these things?

am i really doing all those things?
am i really being disrespectful?
but i thot they all know that i meant for fun..
i'm not confessing those things over their lives..
honestly..i only dun see him as what he's supposed to be..
but why lord? of all ppl to come to me..
it's him?
what am i to do?
do the rest really feel that way towards me?

God! give me the strength to face him tomorrow n the days to come..
i am a tabernacle of rest..a city of peace..
Let me not be troubled, neither let me be afraid.

seven wonders

2006-10-08T13:37:00.000+08:00

Seven Wonders of the World

Junior high school students in Chicago were
studying the Seven Wonders of the World. At
the end of the lesson, the students were asked
to list what they considered to be the Seven
Wonders of the World. Though there was some
disagreement, the following received the
most votes:

1. Egypt's Great Pyramids
2. The Taj Mahal in India
3. The Grand Canyon in Arizona
4. The Panama Canal
5. The Empire State Building
6. St. Peter's Basilica
7. China's Great Wall

While gathering the votes, the teacher noted that one student, a quiet girl, hadn't turned in her paper yet. So she asked the girl if she was having trouble with her list. The quiet girl replied, "Yes, a little. I couldn't quite make up my mind because there were so many." The teacher said, "Well, tell us what you have, and maybe we can help."

The girl hesitated, then read, "I think the Seven Wonders of the World are:

1. to touch...
2. to taste...
3. to see...
4. to hear... (She hesitated a little, and then added...)
5. to feel...
6. to laugh...
7. and to love.

The room was so quiet, you could have heard a pin drop.

202 Assignment

2006-10-03T12:45:00.000+08:00

for one of my modules - CS202: Visual Communication
we are to take 6 photos to convey a message..
6 photos, no more, no less..
and the class is supposed to see it & guess what u're trying to say..
so in the one week break..i was thinking so hard of what to do..
Praise God for godly sisters in RGBC!!
think they were quite irritated by me..lol..
cos i keep asking them to help me think when i was working..
anyway..got lots of ideas from them..esp val..
finally managed to do up everything with the help of yz's camera!
thanks dear! for lending it to me... :)

well..here's the final 6 i've chosen..only the last photo was not taken by me..
(i'm happy cos i think it's quite good among those shown in tutorial today..)
it's all God's wisdom!!!

adventure back to hall

2006-09-25T18:20:00.000+08:00

One week ago...................

17.09.06 21:30
stepped out of my house with a small paper bag in hand, full of clothes to conquer the following 2 days in Pulau NTU. Went back to hall with hanyu, and stepped into an empty room. Where's my host? Still on her way back. trying to be hardworking, i got down to reading my notes to prepare for project meeting -- the reason why i'm even back in hall. a project meeting at 12 midnight.

17.09.06 23:00
Her host, yuanzhen, is finally back. Feels so good to see someone after attempts after attempts to finish her readings. Readings seem so insignificant all of a sudden. so i decided to help yz in her assignment.

18.09.06 00:00
walked down to semi-circle between hall 12 & 13. all my project mates were late. why am i standing in the cold all by myself? Praise God i remembered there's still Him. Din feel that cold after all. cos He was with me. Always. :)

18.09.06 02:00
walked out from my project mate's room. meeting ended. but only 5% was done. realised i was the only one who prepared for the meeting. hah..hardworking indeed. Went back & helped yz complete her assignment before i finally slept as yz continued her battle with her tutorials.

18.09.06 07:45
bothof us woke up. yz off to project meeting, while me gg back to her editing suite to continue my assignment with my project mate. Got to the Crazy School & continued our 6th hour in the editing suite. Tired. Both me &my project mate. After 3 hours, we finally finished & rushed off to lecture.

18.09.06 14:00
Went on a tour of Jurong West with hanyu. haha..cos she needs orchids for her presentation the next morning, but there dun seem to be a single stalk of orchid in sight. Went to CHC area, pioneer mall, jp, and finally jurong west ave 1 area where one florist still have orchids flowers (the flower only, no stalk). Finally, the tour can end!

18.09.06 19:00
got to Cant 16 after a 2.5 hrs tutorial. tired. and the rest are late. finally ate dinner before gg back to bathe. then began my night long battle to study for my midterm.
MSN nick: warrior one battling her tuts. warrior 2 battling her quiz. do not disturb.

19.09.06 03:00
i finally went to bed thou i haven finished studying for my midterm. tired. history is really quite boring. :(

[i din spent the whole time from 8pm to 3am studying la..went to visit all my hall friends, like susan, hanyu, wenting, bernice, when she felt sleepy..lol..and took photos with yz n her soft toy-nemo!]

19.09.06 07:30
woke up to conquer my midterm. step into 830am lecture to know that the lecturer tricked everyone into coming, yet there's no midterm. midterm gonna be on thurs. -___- tired. doesn't help that the guest lecturer in the early morning speaks in monotone & mumbles to himself. yawns. tired.

19.09.06 10:45
went back hall & found yz still sleeping. woke her up to go for her lesson while i decide whether to takeover her bed & sleep. heh. decide to do some work 1st, but was disrupted by a funny insect she saw. then she finally went for lessons & i was all alone in hall again. tired me couldn't take it anymore & fell asleep.

19.09.06 13:00
woke up and realised i'm gg to be late in meeting her cg for lunch. but nvm la..so i went to bathe before packing up my stuff to go home.

19.09.06 13.45
stepped out of hall, locked the door. and that marks the end of my little 'adventure' back to hall 13.

Settlers' Cafe

2006-09-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

went to settlers' cafe for e 1s time yesterday..
went to the katong branch with my beloved vj bballers..
but jialing nv come.. :(

anyway..we went there as a early birthday celebration for xiang..
so that ally can be part of wishing her before ally goes back to london...

it's quite a nice place...
$6 for entrance & one drink - free flow..
then if u want a main course..it's just another $5..
so it's actually quite cheap..
& there's lots of games to play..

we started off with Bang!
which is kinda fun, except we took very long to grab the concept at 1st..lol..
then we played Blink! which is like heart attack, except you dun pass u cards..
you trade it with ppl..until you get all 9 of the same card..

following that, we played this game which i also duno call what..lol..
we each have to pick an toy animal from a bag, then make a sound that represent the animal..
then u'll cover your animal & the same starts..
it's like snap..except when ur cards are the same, you are to say out the opposite person's sound..
it can be hilarious!!
ally goes: oinky oink oink..
yos went: zu zu zu
tingting went: cock kok kei kei kei kei..
haha...it's so so funny to hear..

we played lots of other games..
dun really remember liao..lol..
but can go when i'm free..
jio me ya? :)

爱你的方式

2006-08-30T14:13:00.000+08:00

爱你的方式

那一天发现喜欢上你
你的一举一动都让我着迷
你的每个眼神都让我注意
不知如何说我爱你
只能向这样想着你

只要在朋友之间默默望着你
你那可爱的笑容就是我爱你的方式
只要在自己房间夜夜想着你
为你的人生祈祷就是我爱你的方式

和你一起我不愿多看你
害怕爱你的秘密不小心被你看见
和你一起我不愿多说话
害怕爱你的秘密不小心被你发现

只要在朋友之间默默望着你
你那可爱的笑容就是我爱你的方式
只要在自己房间夜夜想着你
为你的人生祈祷就是我爱你的方式

forensic science

2006-08-16T07:57:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Daddy God really love me alot!

in the midst of feeling down..
He gave me what i wanted..

dropped astronomy to take up
FORENSIC SCIENCE!!!

yeah! can't wait to take it...
got lots of ppl taking with me!
yuanzhen, camellia, agnes, louis n xuelin!

yeah! tmr got lecture!
:)

creation

2006-08-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

Daddy God loves me so so much..
just when i felt lonely..
He showed me His wonderful creation...

ok..He din show me..the lecturer did..
the video he showed was abt Charles Darwin..
and it showed the nature..
and i saw how AWESOME God made this world..
anyway..it's about finches..
and how Darwin had this theory that everything..
plants, animals, humans...
all come from the same root..

there and then...
i know..
that root that Darwin was searching for was God..

In Him, all things are created..
He is the alpha and omega!

dun let satan steal my joy

2006-08-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

Satan! i command you to get out of my life!

i will not let you steal my joy..
even though things may seem bad now..
but MY GOD will turn it around for good..

My God, My Jesus has authority over you!
and He is in me..
I will take up my authority & command you out!

No weapons formed against me shall prosper..

I have the victory, the sweet sweet victory in Christ!

2006-08-06T16:10:00.000+08:00

ok..i need to clarify before more ppl ask me..

I DUN HV A BOYFRIEND

if i have one...i'll tell u all k?
so just wait..

anyway..i believe that if ever i'll meet my future boyfriend..
it's a God-planned incident..
so no need to care about it...
cos it's all in God's hand..

He'll know who's the one for me..
cos Jesus is my ultimate bridegroom!
He loves me so so so so so much
that He gave His life for me..
:)

2006-08-02T16:46:00.000+08:00

你对我到低是怎样?

和别人说了你
和别人说了你的好
和别人说了你的事情
和别人也说了对你的好感
但是就没和你说

和别人有说我吗?
和别人有说我的好吗?
和别人有说我的事情吗?
和别人有说对我有好感吗?
但是就没和我说吗?

我的心意大家都看得出
对你不是单单的好
对你不是一般的好
对你是发自内心
想要你开心而做每一件事
但这一切也都是我一厢情愿吗?

你的心意大家都不知道
对我是单单的好吗?
对我是一般的好吗?
对我是发自内心
想要我开心才做的事情吗?
但这一切也都是我一厢情愿吗?

你对我到低是怎样?

competition

2006-07-10T20:43:00.000+08:00

it's 4.55am now & i just witness italy winning..

Italy 1 - 1 France
1st goal by france -
quite an ugly penalty by Zidane
2nd goal by italy -
beautiful cross + beautiful goal
(ok..i'm bias..but i think zidane is good..)

Penalty Shoot Out:
Italy 5 - 3 France

seeing them run ard the field..
embracing each other..
crowd cheering..
reminds me of when my teams won..

Winning is a good feeling.
it's a "duh" thing to say..
but when u're really in a team..
having fighting ur heart out in a match..
having gone thru trainings after trainings..
winning is a very good feeling..

using the word "good" is actually an understatement..
but the feeling cannot be describe..
good is general enuf to encompass everything good feeling there is..

i miss competitive basketball..
i miss training hard with my beloved teammates..
i miss striving hard for a common goal..
*anyone wanna go play ball?*

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anyway..what was zidane thinking when he commited the foul?
he is a very good player despite his age..
it's his LAST world cup..it's the LAST match..
shldn't he be exiting gloriously regardless if they win or not?
i just dun get it..

4N dinner

2006-07-08T15:44:00.000+08:00

was supposed to have a class outing tonight..
but from a class of 40 ppl..
i have 6 ppl turning up...
INCLUDING me!!!
how wonderful.

but anyway....
that includes
jasmin
michelle
wanjing
kershia
jolin
and me

had a wonderful time catching up with them..
ate at suntec's nydc..
then went to starbucks where we sat n talk..
(without buying a single drink.. ;p)

so long since i've seen them..
my precious friends!
love ya all!!
thks for coming out for dinner!

i miss sec 3/4 life!

2006-07-02T09:10:00.000+08:00

went to give tution today..
and was teaching the cute little girl how to spell the different colours from her textbook..
dun remember what we were talking about..
but i remembered her saying this..

姐姐 joanna..you know in my art class right..
what i painted was a mess-terpiece..
but the teacher said it was a masterpiece...

and wow! it just hit me that all the things that i do..
i always feel that they are rubbish..
or maybe slightly better than rubbish...
i always feel that they are not up to standard...
that i can always do better than what i did..
but hey..in God's eyes..
they are MASTERPIECES..
cos they were created by His beloved child!
:)

and likewise...
i may feel that me myself is a mess-terpiece..
but Daddy sees me as a masterpiece..
cos He CREATED me...

and He LOVES joanna A LOT!!!
:)

Back to Cedar...

2006-06-13T11:44:00.000+08:00

went back to cedar today to play a friendly match against my juniors..

as i walk to the busstop at my hse..decided to take 100 so that i'll walk pass cedar pri to get to cedar girls...after alighting at the so familiar busstop..memories of pri n sec sch life flooded me..miss those 无忧无虑 times...all i have to do was to get good grades...then i can have fun...

anyway..the old cedar pri building is gone..
there goes Block A, Block B and the canteens...
there goes the passage way linking the 2 blocks that i played catching for 6yrs..
up in its place is this unfamiliar building..
white n blue..it looked like cedar girls' biulding..
EXCEPT that it looked so filmsy..
haha..it looked like it'll fly away if a tornado comes to spore..
compared to cedar girls' building that's right next to it..
cedar girls' building looked so much more solid...

cedar girls looked similiar..
except that most of the doors are pink!
wonder why?
cedar uniform is blue lei...
the whole sch so blue n white..
why PINK doors? so 不搭..
anyway..cedar now got indoor bball court..
why din we hv in the past? haiz..
wonder how we survived the super duper hot sun...

anyway..i'm so angry!
michelle, connie n mag 放我飞机!!!
in the end i was the only one from my batch!
haha..the oldest batch there! feel so old..
the sec fours will hv to call me "grand grand grand senior"..
the sec ones will call me "grand x 6 senior"..
OMG!!!
but anyway..i wasn't angry la..
cos got crazy juniors to entertainment me!

'99 batch - ME!
'00 batch - Dawn, Julie, Khim Rong
'01 batch - Trina, Kai Hui, Lynette
'02 batch - Sophina, Eileen

haha..they can always make me laugh!
we're such crazy ppl..
remembering all the drills we did when we're there..
then now seeing the sec 1s & 2s do them..
so fun! haha...

hope to go back and play again soon! :)

恋人未滿

2006-06-08T15:20:00.000+08:00

恋人未滿 – SHE

為什麼只和你能聊一整夜

為什麼才道別就又想再见面

在朋友裡面　就數你最特別

总让我觉得很亲很贴

為什麼你在意谁陪我逛街

為什麼你担心谁對我放電

你說你對我　比別人多一些

却又不說是多哪一些

＊友达以上　恋人未滿

   甜蜜心煩　愉悅混亂

   我們以后　会变怎样

   我迫不及待想知道答案

＃再靠近一點點　就讓你牽手

   再勇敢一點點　我就跟你走

   你還等什麼　時間已經不多

   再下去　只好只做朋友

＋再向前一點點　我就會點頭

   再冲动一點點　我就不閃躲

   不過三個字　別犹豫這麼久

   只要你說出口　你就能擁有我

％為什麼你寂寞只想要我陪

   為什麼我難過只肯讓你安慰

   我們心裡面　明明都有感覺

   為什麼不敢面對

(重唱)　％,＊,＃,＋

我不相信　都動了感情卻到不了

愛情　那麼貼心卻進不了

心底　你能不能快一點決定

對我說我愛你

(重唱)　＃,＋

只要你說出口　你就能擁有我

2006-06-03T16:27:00.000+08:00

Hasn’t blogged for very long..
Have been busy gg out?
Hahaha…

Mon – 29/5
From a person who have not watch any X-Men movie…
I watched all 3 that day…
Went to watch X-Men 3 with my sisters…
At PS, we walked in to TS &…
my eldest sis bought both X-Men 1 & 2 vcd…
so when we reached home…
I immediately open & started watching during dinner…
Then proceed on to part 2…
But I din finish watching…
cos she wanna watch “so u think u can dance”…

Tue – 30/5
Was supposed to meet yuanzhen & wanyun at 2pm…
But I woke up and decided to finish up X-Men 2…
Hee…so in the end I was late…
Anyway…we spent around 4 hrs in far east…
Also duno how we managed to do that…
After that went to wisma where e shopping cont…
Yuanzhen’s sis came n join us…
Ate dinner at the wisma foodcourt…
Think the new foodcourt is really not bad…
I like the concept… :)
After that we went to find alvin…
Then finally home sweet home…

Wed – 31/5
Went to give tution from 11 to 1…
Then I took my time to go parkway…
Went to develop some photos…
And also sent hanyu a letter…
Hmm…duno reach her already anot…
*hanyu..if u see this b4 e letter arrives..just look forward to it..*

Thurs – 1/6
Went to neng’s hse at 11+am…
So long nv see her…it’s really great seeing her again…
At her hse…we played this board game
called “settlers” or something lidat la…
it’s really fun…anyone have?
Haha..we can play together…
Stayed at her hse till like 10+ b4 me & ber came home…
Lord…pls bless this precious child of Yours…
Give her the wisdom, Lord, as she prepares for her A levels…
Lord, show her the things to study…
And grant her the knowledge that she needs for the exams…
Let her not be so stress and all…
And Lord, help her to manage her time…
In the midst of her preparation…
Let her still spend time with You…
Help her pursue You before everything else…
Help her seek Your kingdom first…
And You shall add all other things to her…
Thank You Lord…
In Jesus’ name…Amen.

Fri – 2/6
Went to ecp with…
Yuanzhen, Lindsay, Camellia, Lydia…
Timo, Tim Ang, Yiwei…
I bladed today…haven bladed since sec 4…
So praise God that I still remembers how to…
Hee…was really fun to blade again…
Everyone bladed except yuanzhen…
But still…we all had a wonderful time under the sun!
Then we bathe at ecp b4 gg for BS…
After BS..went to HK café at MS…
Had a wonderful time fellowshipping…

Today’s sermon was good…
Think God really knows what I wanna know…
Even thou I know abt the holy comm…
But I always wonder what it actually means to
1) partake of His flesh
2) drink of His blood
so what pastor Joshua said today was what I need to know…

to eat of His flesh --> to come to Jesus (to hear His words)
to drink of His blood --> to believe Jesus

it’s as simple as that…
to just believe and hear about Him…
You dun have to know the bible super well…
I can guarantee you I dun…
Most of the time…I’ll ask ppl where to find what verse…
All we need to do is to just know the Author of the bible…
That’s more than enough!

outings

2006-05-23T17:10:00.000+08:00

have been wking n wking since the end of exams..
but in these few weeks..
i went out lots too...

10 may -
went for steven curtis chapman's concert..
he was awesome!
his songs were very touching..
but i love the fast song "Dive"..
was sitting with the ntu ppl at the back of the audi..
and PP was there too...
he was quite funny..with his hp..

13 may -
had lunch with mum, meh n ber to celebrate mum's bday as well as mothers' day..
but after that i went for campus while they went to shop...
had a mini surprise bday celebration for lydia..
gave her vouchers n SCC cd..
with his signature n him writing "happy birthday lydia"..
after which went to maggie's to eat dinner..
was amusing to watch annie n alvin "quarrel"..
haha..me n timo just watch free show..

14 may -
went to wheelock's nydc with the ntu cg ppl after service at indoor..
lots of ppl went..but really enjoyed the time with timo, yiwei, alvin and God's wonderful princesses - yuanzhen n amber! (maybe cos they were the ones at my side of the long table..haha..)

17 may -
went to town with yuanzhen, tim ang n timo..
haha..was a weird day cos it's the guys buying stuff instead of us girls..
the guys went off 1st to celebrate someone's bday..
but me n yz window shopped till 8plus...
wah..so tired la..my feet was killing me..

19 may -
went back to ntu for cg..
but was a nice journey cos huilin drove me there...
felt so so loved by her..
and favoured by her...
thanks princess!
she was in suntec n so she decided to wait till i get off work..
so sweet right?
so me n coach les took her car..
had a wonderful time during combined praise n worship..
return journey home was also in huilin's car..
she drove me all the way home lor..
so nice of her right?
really thank God for such a wonderful sister to talk to..

20 may -
went to east coast with
yuanzhen, lydia, lindsay..
timo, tim ang & alvin...
played frisbee at 1st..had a really wonderful time..
laughing n sweating it out..
then we went to cycle..
yuanzhen learned to cycle! yeah!
after that..went to PP for dinner where agnes joined us..

21 may -
went to suntec twice cos i left my phone at home..
went for 1st service n then wk from 11 to 2pm..
after that..gujie drove me home where i got my hp..
then i took the bus to suntec again cos i had to serve 3rd/4th..
so dumb right? travelling twice..haiz...
but anyway..had a good time serving..
managed to talk to 2 ppl..one of which i think is from vj..
shall ask her when i see her again...
it'll be wonderful to see them in campus..
and experience God's love more!
after that went to eat dinner with timo n tim ang..
the rest went to eat dinner with the "L" ppl..
haha..that's amber's term for them...
went to changing appetites where wanyun joined us..
had a great time fellowshipping with them...

Thank You Lord for all these ppl You've placed in my life.
they have really been a blessing to me..
thou i complain a lot..but bcos i'm Your child..
You always put up with me and love me all the same.
i know You have great plans for me..
that's why i'm placed where i am today.
that's why all these ppl are placed in my life..
Lord, teach me how to travel light..
help me put down all these burdens that You never ever meant for me to carry..
that You can use me even more in the way that You meant..
Thank You Lord..
whatever happened..the devil may meant it for evil..
but You'll always turn it around and meant it for good!

thinking of you

2006-05-23T16:41:00.000+08:00

想你对吗?

想多见到你.
想多听到你的声音.
想多和你说说话.
想多点时间陪你.

想你多注意我.
想你多关心我.
想你多了解我.
想你多照顾我.

但...你知道吗?

Psalm 6

2006-05-21T01:09:00.000+08:00

Psalm 6 – A Prayer of Faith in Time of Distress

1 O LORD, do not rebuke me in Your anger,
Nor chasten me in Your hot displeasure.
2 Have mercy on me, O LORD, for I am weak;
O LORD, heal me, for my bones are troubled.
3 My soul also is greatly troubled;
But You, O LORD – how long?
4 Return, O LORD, deliver me!
Oh, save me for Your mercies' sake!
5 For in death there is no remembrance of You;
In the grave who will give You thanks?
6 I am weary with my groaning;
All night I make my bed to swim;
I drench my couch with my tears.
7 My eye wastes away because of grief;
It grows old because of all my enemies.
8 Depart from me, all you workers of iniquity;
For the LORD has heard the voice of my weeping.
9 The LORD has heard my supplication;
The LORD will receive my prayer.
10 Let all my enemies be ashamed and greatly troubled;
Let them turn back and be ashamed suddenly.

Thank you Lord…
You had already heard my cries and wipe away my tears.
You had received my prayers and I know Your goodness will follow me all the days of my life.
I need not try and be a good daughter or any other role in this earth because You only gave me one role to play – to be a beloved child of Yours.

2006-05-16T18:37:00.000+08:00

GIVE THANKS

Give thanks with a grateful heart
Give thanks to the Holy one
Give thanks because He’s given
Jesus Christ, His Son

And now, let the weak say I am strong
Let the poor say I am rich
Because of what the Lord has done for us
Give thanks

献上我感恩的心
归给我圣洁的主
因神将祂子耶稣
赐给我们

如今,凡软弱者得刚强
凡贫穷者得富足
因主为我们撑住一切
感恩
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I remember that this was my fav song when I first came to know Christ..
Haven sing it for a very long time…
Was reminded of this simple yet meaningful song when Pastor Chin said on sat that
“in everything give thanks” (1 Thessalonians 5:18)

was feeling really sad n down on fri night cos of things at home and the tough day that I had at work…was just feeling so cold n lonely inside that I started crying...guess I would say of myself as one who will like to out up a brave front..even in front of my parents n sisters…so I was crying to myself on the sofa where I was sleeping…wanted to call counselor A and B (2 of the person I wrote in my book on sat when pastor chin ask us to write down who are the counselors in our lives) but din wanna disturb them cos I thot they were at Ubin..so will be very tired) n I came to the point where I really couldn’t take it that I msged someone to order me to stop crying and go to bed…but then..that didn’t work…
I knew the only one who can stop this crying was God..but I din wanna read the bible..
(cos I dun wanna switch on the lights..anyway cannot see properly when I’m crying…)
and I really dunno what to tell Daddy God except to switch off the tap in my eyes…
started to pray in tongues and thank you Holy Spirit for bringing a calm into me..and leading me to listen to song to get to sleep…dun even know when I stopped crying...just fell asleep cos I was too exhausted from crying I think…

anyway…thou I was feeling much better…my mind was still full of thots n stuff…I dun wanna think about them…but I just can’t help it…so I was asking God to speak to me…
and thou He din answer me directly…I got it from pastor chin’s n pastor prince’s messages on sat n sun….

on sat..pastor chin was sharing about decisions but what I caught wasn’t that…what rally spoke to me was the giving thanks part…dun you wonder how you can still give thanks to God at the peak of all your troubles? Well..pastor said that in everyday lives, in everything we do, we shld turn to the Lord..not only turn to Him during crisis..
the same thing applies to giving thanks..God said in 1 thess..”in everything give thanks”..so in everyday lives..we’ll give thanks to the Lord so often..that even in times of crisis..we’ll also give thanks to the Lord…

then on sun..pastor prince said something about wisdom…
something about the old may not be as wise as the young ones..wisdom have nothing to do with age…wisdom..only comes from God..
it struck me that you know..it’s the answer that I’ve always been searching…
as the youngest in the family..i always wonder why am I the only one who seems to be worrying..or the one who’s thinking about why did they take such actions?
Why in the world does my parents do the things they do? Can’t they think? Dun they know the consequences? Dun they care about how we feel? I know they love me..i’m one of their daughters..but if they love me..why are they doing what they’re doing? Ain’t their actions shouting “I AM STUPID!”? where’s the wisdom that they shld hv?
Besides my parents..my sisters too…sometimes..the things they do puzzled me too…why do they make such a decision when I can clearly see the bad results? Suggestions to them just fall around them…why? Wisdom? Where is it in their lives?
Then I realized that hey..wisdom is not about them…wisdom is about Jesus…
Jesus is wisdom personified…
He is my wisdom..Maybe that’s why I can see the things that they do not…

Ppl will always tell me..
“Jo, you’re very mature and sensible.”
Most of the time..i’ll reply that I had to be…
I have to be in the circumstances that I’m in…
But now I realized...it’s not me at all…
How in the world would I know that I have to study hard?
How in the world would I know that I dun wanna be like any ah lians on the street?
How in the world would I know this is the path God wants me to take?
It’s Wisdom in me.. aka…it’s Jesus in me..
It’s all God’s plan for me…

But then…Lord…why can’t ur wisdom get thru to them and make them see?
They all know You personally…but why aren’t they seeing You?
Holy Spirit…speak to them…There’s nothing I can go except to play sermons out loud for the whole family to hear despite scoldings…only You can speak to the spirit in their flesh…Lord…Do something…

I’ll do the one thing needful now…to give thanks:
THANK YOU DADDY GOD!

arrghhh...

2006-05-13T15:03:00.000+08:00

Public Holiday Meal

Every public holiday that I work
I eat a standard meal
At 10.50am
I walk towards…

Subway
6-inch cold cut trio
Honey oat bread
Lettuce and cucumber
Honey mustard sauce
2 cookies (normally will order double choc)
ice lemon tea

That is my
Breakfast
Lunch
Dinner

Isn’t it just wonderful?

Nasty Customer

Think this is the 1st time I’m gg to complain about a customer..
But hey...even my parents won’t scold/talk to me in such a bad manner ok?
She came back with her cd…
Claiming that it’s faulty…
Then she and her husband consecutively barked at me…
How can you all sell faulty stuff?
it’s very wrong…
you better change it for me…
and if it’s spoilt again…
(the above is not word for word..but the next line I QUOTE!!!)
I’ll throw it back at you…

HELLO!!!!!!
We only sell the CDs…
We dun manufacture them…
So what if it’s faulty?
Just have some patience
We’ll definitely change a good one for you…
Why do you have to say such things?

Ironic thing?
Her name’s GRACE
Can’t you be gracious?

Thank God He gave me the ability to not talk back…
Thank you Lord for letting me just smile back at her…
Thank you Lord for presenting good customer service…
And…
Thank you Lord for dying for her on the cross…
So that there is therefore no condemnation…
But Lord…
Dun let me see her again…
and thank you that I dun really remember her face…
Just dun let her tell me her full name…
Cos I still remember…

Ok...enough of venting…
Duno what got over me tonight…

You, name yourself…
Tiredness?
Troubled-ness?
Unhappiness?
Loneliness?

Maybe bcos it’s my 12th consecutive day working?
Maybe bcos I return home to see the words on the wall?
Maybe bcos I return to a home I din really wanna return to?
Maybe bcos I wanted to talk to someone?
Maybe bcos I needed someone to talk to?
Maybe bcos I can’t find anyone to talk to?
Maybe bcos I realized that I can’t find anyone I can really talk to?
Maybe bcos I discovered that I have been living 20 years…
Yet I haven found a friend that I can openly share all that I am thinking?

I know God hears me…
He knows all my thoughts even before I think of them…
So why is God allowing me to think lidat?
Can someone enlighten me?

Lord, why are You letting me ask
“why am I born in this family?” again?

HELP! HELP! HELP!
JESUS, I NEED YOU!

我长大了吗?

2006-05-07T18:01:00.000+08:00

我长大了吗?

Was actually writing in Chinese when I was suddenly disconnected…
& so all my 辛辛苦苦 typed Chinese entry is gone…
Dun feel like typing them all over again…
So shall change to English version…

Have I grown up?

20th birthday is over ard 2 months ago…
My 1st year in university is also over…
Soon…I’ll be entering into my 2nd year in NTU…

So what have I done in this one year that just flew by?
What have I learned in this one year that just flew by?

Entering NTU…I made a lot of friends…
In SCI…
In Hall 13…
In Jap classes…
In church esp. NTU cg
Some of them are friends whom I love to be with…
Like yuanhong, camellia, aveline, liting and xuelin…
Like wenting, susan and yanyin…
Like God’s wonderful princesses – yuanzhen, wanyun, agnes…
And His wonderful princes – timo, alvin, louis…
But then…there are some whom seem to not know you after the term has ended…
They dun even smile at you when you walk pass them…
Can’t you smile back at me? It’ll only take a split second to smile…

Entering NTU…
I also acquire a lot of knowledge…
With regards to school work…research is a must…
Hence the need to know more and more…
It’s of course good…I really know more now…
But it’s not enough…
I’m still lost when ppl discuss stuff…
I need to know more…
Not only so that I know what’s going on in class…
But also to have more things to write in exams…
Learning Jap was a wise decision cos I enjoyed it…
Will cont if I get a good grade for level 1…

Entering NTU…
I live away from home…
I grew more independent…
Though there isn’t really much of a difference…
Cos I’m independent way before I entered NTU…
Freedom is never an issue to me…cos my parents dun care…
So the freedom that most ppl say hall provides dun really apply to me…

Besides the above…
In this one year…

I grew to be more interested in politics…
Maybe cos the election is this year…
But hey..i cant vote…not yet 21…
No progress package…
But I start to take interest…
About how the govt works n stuff associated to it…

I grew to want to know more details about God…
In the past…I just needed to know that God loves me…
That is enough already…
But this year…I wanna know what exactly happened…
Why did such a thing happen in the bible?
Why these phrases mean this or that?
Which translation will help me better understand the bible?
It’s not a something a child will ask I think...(thou there might be exceptions)

But then…

I realized that I want more n more love…
From my family…
From my friends…
From a certain someone(I duno who yet la…)

What is love?
Timo was sharing a little about it during cg…
He asked this: How do you know that God loves you?
For me…
I think I know He loves me cos He provides for me…
takes care of me…
have ppl ard me to encourage/bless me…
and most imptly…He gave His Son, Jesus, up for me…

“For God so LOVED the world, that He gave His only Begotten Son, that whosoever believe in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life.”
- John 3:16
why is it ‘LOVED’ and not ‘LOVE’ ?
you mean He dun love us now?
No!!! take your time to think about it…
See that there’s a “THAT” behind?
It’s bcos Jesus had already died for us…
God LOVED us then so much that that He gave His Son for us…
But because Jesus had already died for us…
There is no more need for God to love us so much in the same way…
God now so LOVES the world…
But there’s no need for Jesus to die a 2nd time…
That’s why God used “LOVED” in the verse…
(if you dun understand…call me…cos I duno how to write it in simpler terms…)

Anyway…
There’s always ppl asking…
Do you wanna love marry a guy who loves you more…
Or you love him more…
Well...i’ll choose to love him more…
Guess it’s just me…as long as I can see the person I love…
It already feels great…
But honestly…
Word of advice…
Find a guy who loves God more…
That’s an even more secure marriage…

Ok…………………………………………………
Enough of my nonsense…
Shall go to sleep soon….
Came home at ard 130am after cg on fri…
Almost got scolded by papa n mummy…
But thank God they didn’t…hee…
Why was I so late?
Cos we all went out to chompchomp to eat after cg…
But no worries…
cos I got a shepherd n a fellow sheep who were commanded by wanyun to take care of me…so shepherd send me back home after letting the other sheep alight…
thanks shepherd….so sweet of you…cos think you will send me back even if wanyun nv command you to…haha…cos it’s 1AM!!! You wont let me take cab myself…

And now..it’s 3am le!
Haha…shall go sleep le…
Tmr got work again…

Finding Neverland

2006-04-21T14:53:00.000+08:00

Finding Neverland

Was watching "Finding Neverland"..
haha..shows how much i studied for 106 huh.. :p
anyway..there was this part between the 2 leads
(johnny depp & kate winslet)
kate winslet was talking to johnny depp:

You pretended for some time now that
you are part of this family, haven’t we?
You’ve come to mean so much to us all that now...
it doesn’t matter if it’s true.
And even if it isn’t true, even if that can never be,
I need to go on pretending, until the end, with you.

thot it sounds really good..though it's sad..
haha..it just speaks to me..dun ask me why..it just did..
i duno..but it was the most memorable part of the show to me..
haha..i'm just unique..(weird in a nice way.. :p)
hmm...maybe because i love to pretend?
i'm a deep thinker..not that i have those cheem thoughts about stuff..
but thoughts about life..and what i'm doing..
about the people around me...
haha..Hui Lin told me last thurs:
Jo, i can see that you're a person who thinks a lot right?
well..ya! haha...am i that obvious?
anyway..sometimes i'll just stare into space wondering about stuffs..
especially about the people around me..
i'll start thinking what if this happen..or what if that happen..
what will i be doing?
what will you be doing?
hhaa...i duno what i'm talking about..
but ya..i love to think..
and maybe daydream.. :)

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CS103 - the paper sucks!
think it's going to be the worst paper that i can ever take..
hopefully those in the years after will be better..
but i'm going to trust God for a good grade in the paper
cos i've already covered it in His blood..
shan't talk abt it further cos it'll just make me more sad..

CS 105 - ok lor..
it was amazing how God will put ppl ard you to encourage you..
went into the exam hall feeling really down cos i couldn't remember the 1001 definitions for comm research..put down my stuff n went toilet 1st...
then when i reach back my seat..found out that Camellia is just sitting next to me!
it's something that've never happened!
having took so many modules together..it's the 1st time i see her in exam hall!
was really thinking: God, thank you..
i can't explain why...but it's really different to see God's anointed ppl..
cos they'll tell you things like "grace grace" instead of ppl who'll tell you "how ar? die la.."
felt really good about doing the paper there n then..
but the paper..haiz..it's very application based..
1st question..i really duon what i was writing..
the rest of it was ok..think my ideas are roughly there..
Thank you Lord that my answers will find favour in the marker's eyes!
anyway..my budget was $7050 i think..
anyone else hv similar answers for Q5?

Cs108 - ok paper...
haha..it's a relax paper cos it's only 30%..
but hey! i finished reading the textbook k?
(except the part on our health cos it's not coming out for the paper)
trusting God that i'll do well in it..
thou i forgot the actual definition of DRM..
and just wrote a rough gauge for him..hee..
but anyway..i was watching "Friends" with yuanzhen the day before..
who can take exams and still be relax as us?

honestly..God is just so wonderful to His saints..
having studied with the ntu cg ppl is really a wonderful experience..
there's always ppl ard to encourage you..
ppl reminding you of God's love for you..
ppl sharing God's word with you..
and God's presence is really there..
and when i look ard..it's really amazing how we can laugh
and have so much fun while other ppl are mugging so hard...
every breakfast/lunch/dinner that i eat with these people of God..
i'm very much refreshed and feels more awake..
and even if i'm interrupted when i'm studying..
(by agnes mostly..but it's ok dear...)
they are ppl who will share the word with me..
and their testimonies with me...
letting me know how awesome our Daddy God is!

here..i would really like to thank my wonderful brothers n sisters...
Louis..Yiwei..Alvin..Tim Ang..Timo...
Yuanzhen..Agnes..

God Loves Me!

2006-04-15T09:03:00.000+08:00

Daddy God loves me so so so so so much!!

Jesus loves me this i know
For the bible tells me so
Little ones to Him belong
They are weak for He is strong

Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
For the bible tells me so

Daddy God is so so so so good..
everytime i felt lonely and unloved..
He'll remind me again that i'm very much loved by Him!

When i went home a few weeks ago..
i realised that papa's prob is back again..
that's really my weak spot that the stupid devil is pressing..
but Thank You Lord that that power is back in You hands..
the key is now in Your hands Lord.
i'm leaving the matter in Your hands..

anyway..ya..the prob was on my mind la..
and i felt family love seeping away from me..
although ber n meh is there for me..
it's just diff not to have love from our parents..
it's really something that ppl cannot say that they also feel..
cos they really can't..
dun tell me you can..cos u dun..
my family story can be filmed into a drama lor..
it's like a drama serial that u'll see on tv..
as dramatic n full of........haiz....

But...just like He did last year during ben-gen camp..
(see my entry in June 2005 abt ben-gen camp)
He did it again yesterday night during ntu praise & worship..
He reminded me again of His great love for me..
that unwavering love..
that perfect love that will cast out all fears..

During P&W, Coach Les told us to tell Daddy God for one thing that we really wish to have..
so i was thinking abt the stupid prob that the devil was giving me..
and how i want God to take it away..
then Coach Les told all the cgls to go ard praying for us..

i'm not gg to write what they said..
but one thing was very evident..
that God loves me..

1st person who came to me was my shepherd, timo..
he told me that God loves me.
2nd person who came was Coach Les..
he told me that God will give His love to me.
3rd person was HuiLin..
she told me that not only will i experience God's love..
it'll be so much that i can spread it around..

Daddy God really loves me..
so so so so so so so so much!!!

God is faithful!!!

2006-04-15T08:36:00.000+08:00

Jap exam is over! haha...finally i dun hv to study jap le..haha..now tim ang n agens cannot say i keep studying jap le..haha..

anyway..God is truly faithful, esp during exams!!!

yesterday morn..i met mag to tally our answers for the past year papers..so as i was looking..realised that i had quite a number of wrong..i was actually quite discouraged..but then i dun hv time to study le..gg to go in for exam le..so i can't memorise the 1001 jap vocabs lor..(there's isn't 1001 but seems like la....) super sad le...

when i went in, i just suddenly remembered what timo told me the night before..that just cover our exams in Jesus' blood..it'll never fail lor..so i just laid hands on the exam paper..and said:
"Jesus, i'm covering this jap exam in Your blood. Your blood will never fail me. I know that this paper is already graded with a A in Your name. As i do this paper, it doesn't matter what i studied. all the thoughts in my mind now will be from You and only You alone. where i'm supposed to put in the "qing shen" words will be directed by You cos i dun remember. Thank you Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen."

and guess what?
i breeze thru the exam..only got like 5 to 6 questions that i duno how to answer..
(for your info, the paper is like chinese paper..got fill-in-the-blank, compre, compo..etc.)
so truly praise God!!!
and i actually finished the paper 30 mins b4 time was up..so amazing...haha..

God is truly a faithful God!!
Thank you Abba Father!!!

You Are So Faithful

Like the sun that rises everyday
You are so faithful
Lord You are faithful
Like the rain that You send
And every breath that I breathe
You are so faithful, Lord

Like a rose that comes alive every spring
O You are so faithful
Lord You are faithful
Like the life that You give
To every beat of my heart
You are so faithful, Lord

I see a cross and the price
You had to pay
I see the blood that washed my sins away

And in the midst of the storm
Through the wind and the waves
You'll still be faithful
You'll still be faithful
And when the stars refuse to shine
And time is no more
You'll still be faithful
You'll still be faithful, O Lord

Mummy, Mummy, why do.......

2006-04-13T13:25:00.000+08:00

Mummy, mummy, why do.....

Understanding Chinese Cinemas is over and done with! yeah! Thank You Lord that i'm already graded with a satisfactory grade in Christ. It's final cos Your word through my mouth is true..
came back hall to get my jap stuff before heading for lunch then study session with yuanzhen they all..

while at lunch today..huilin was picturing her future..she likes to have lots of kids ard her..a big car so that not only can she look after her own kids..she can look after other ppl's kids too..and then..she came to the point where her kids will ask her some questions...so funny...

'mummy, mummy, why do Uncle Louis's kids always like to pose?'
'mummy, mummy, why do all the kids run away when they see Uncle Anil's kids?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Auntie Lindsay's kids always look so chao been?'

and as the jokes continued, "smart" tim ang contributed
'mummy, mummy, why do Auntie yuan zhen's kids keep falling down?'
so funny..yuan zhen fell when she went out to jog with me n agnes on tues morn..but it became the guys' entertainment topics..

lets continue..
'mummy, mummy, why do Uncle Alvin's kids always have so many girls talking to them?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Uncle Tim Ang's kids always like to clear plates?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Uncle Timo's kids always look so blur?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Uncle Yiwei's kids have such colourful hair?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Auntie Agnes's kids always go crazy at 11pm?'
'mummy, mummy, why do Auntie Agnes's kids come online after Uncle Yiwei's kids go offline?'

thats all for now...

all of them couldn't think of anything for me..i'm too nice for us to find faults with...haha..but my dear yuanzhen say she'll definitely find some faults with me soon..haha...

at first she suggested to me..

'mummy, mummy, why do Auntie Joanna's kids like to play basketball so much?'
but then i told her that that's a good thing ma..haha...

well..if you guys are reading this..there's this one "fault" with me...i'm super crappy..haha..you might not realised it now..but i really can be super crappy..hee...gotta continue studying for my jap tmr...bye...........

2006-04-10T10:01:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging for a while..have been a good girl studying hard..

Mon, 3 April -
finally presented 108 video..think it's nice..
cos i did most of the editing ma..hee..
studied with agnes, yuanzhen, alvin, tim ang, louis n yiwei..
from 8pm to 2am..

Tues, 4 April -
finally handed in 105 report 2..
and did not bad for the quiz.. :)
jap listening was ok..but the person really speak super fast..
like japan's bullet train! haha..
studied with the same ppl..
from 8pm to 330am..

Wed, 5 April -
went for my 1 & only lesson..103 tut..
only 9 ppl turned up includ. the presenter..
studied with mag at 4pm..
then with the same ppl as above at night..
then came back hall to study..
from 4pm till 4am..

Thurs, 6 April -
finally no lesson..slept well!
studied alone in hall..
then went for BS..
had a good time fellowshipping with the ntu girls..
from 1pm to 4pm..

Fri, 7 April -
ate breakfast with mum, then came back sch..
oral was ok thou i asked her to repeat her questions..
sumimasen, moichido onegaishimasu
studied with agnes, yuanzhen n alvin..
from 8pm to 1am..
went back hall & suddenly this fly appeared out of nowhere..
couldn't kill it & duno where it flew to..
so dun dare to slp..
in the end went to yuanzhen's room to slp..hee..

Sat, 8 April -
breakfast (bread w jam, mai pian) served by yuanzhen..
thks princess!!!
studied alone in hall..
from 11pm till 1230pm..
then went to meet agnes to go campus..
bought yogert fruz for val..
had a good time in campus..
signed up to serve in pastoral care department as ambassador..
Lord, pls let me be value added to this ministry & manifest Your goodness through me..
had a wonderful time fellowshipping during dinner too..

Sun, 9 April -
met yuanzhen n agnes for 2nd service..
so qiao karen also gg 2nd..
ate lunch with them then came back to sch..
gg to eat dinner with karen at 730..
then study with them..
annie coming in to study too..
yeah! more fellowshipping!!!

*studying with fellow brothers & sisters in Christ is truly wonderful..
*God's presence is so evident & manifesting among us..
*Love all of them!!! :)

duno..

2006-03-29T10:30:00.000+08:00

EXAMS COMING IN A WEEK!!!

4 Apr - LJ80: Japanese listening comprehension
7 Apr - LJ80: Japanese oral
12 Apr - HC801: Understanding Chinese Cinema
13 Apr - LJ80: Japanese written exam
17 Apr - CS103: Intro to EBM
19 Apr - CS108: IT for Media Use
20 Apr - CS105: Intro to Comm Research
21 Apr - CS106: Speech & Presentation

Lord, this is a year of acceleration.
I believe that You will definitely let my revision be fruitful and good.
What people need to study in 10 days i'll be able to do it in one.
I trust that even in the midst of studying,
You let me relax and not be stress,
You allow me to enjoy Your presence,
You made me rejoice in my labour,
and definitely,
You let me find favour in my markers,
that i will get a good grade.
Thank you Lord, that not only will You bless me,
but You will also bless all the people around me that's having exams...
my eldest sis in her SIM exams, Anna in her NUS exams,
the NTU caregroups especially those in my cg,
my roommate, my hall mates...
Thank you Lord, for giving that blessing to me.
All glory will go to You!!!
In Jesus' Name i pray.
Amen.

2006-03-18T16:21:00.000+08:00

篮球的魅力

打球的感觉很好对吗?
我也这么觉得..

那个在球场奔跑的感觉..
那个在球场飞跃的感觉..
那个只顾球在哪的感觉..
那个只顾"球有进篮吗?"的感觉..
那个把其他烦恼忘怀的感觉..

打球的感觉真的很好对吗?
你们每次都说我很有determination..
说我在球场上那永不放弃的精神真的让人惊叹..

但是..

那就是那球场会让你有的..
那就是打篮球的魅力..

really wanna play bball again..
shall keep gg 108 after exams..
Hee..
jialing..u wanna join me?

"Never fear the consequences of missing a shot"
- from trina's msn nick..
like that phrase..

anyway..
just a thot for someone..
不要那么烦恼ok?
有时候..
父母就是这样的..

他们每次都会把我们当成三岁小孩..
因为在他们的眼里..
我们就是三岁小孩..
他们会把一切事情"藏"起来..
但是他们不知道..
我们已经长大了..
他们不要让我们知道的..
我们还是会知道..

有时候..
真的不知道为何他们是我们的父母..
但是..
我们还是那么想他们..
爱他们..
因为..
他们是我们的父母...

haha..my rubbish 感想..
just wanna tell you...
ur parents are fantastic compared to mine..
the thing they're keeping from you is to not let you worry..
what mine is doing will only let me n my sisters worry more..

haiz..
说来话长..
总之..
"家家有本难念的经"

birthday..

2006-03-11T00:35:00.000+08:00

2006.
the year of imaginary candles & slices of birthday cakes.

1st cake - 20/02/06
with my vj female classmates
at Plaza Singapura's Fish Market
presented with...
a slice of chocolate cake.
and was asked...
to blow out an imaginary candle.

2nd cake - 22/02/06
with mehmeh & berber
at home
presented with...
a slice of mango cake.
and was asked...
to blow out an imaginary candle.

3rd cake - 22/02/06
with biaojie, gu jie, berber & grandma
at biaojie's new house
presented with...
a full chocolate cake.
and was asked...
to blow out a real candle.

4th cake - 03/03/06
with my vj bballers
at Marina Square's Cafe Cartel
presented with...
a slice of tiramisu.
and was asked...
to blow out an imaginary candle.

jogging

2006-03-04T02:23:00.000+08:00

went jogging yesterday night at 10.20pm with lingling & susan!
very very very long nv jog le..
could only jog one round..
from hall 13 to hall 10/11 back to hall 13..
couldn't jog to NIE then back to hall 13..
left ankle started to hurt..
so dun wanna strain it..
but lingling was fit!
she went another round while susan & i stopped..
but then we did sit-ups while waiting for ling to come back..
feels great to have work-out..
maybe i'll bring the "taibo" vcd to hall..
then we can all sweat it out!

after bathing..
me & ling went to can A to study..
it's cold there!!!
the wind is so strong..
but i managed to study for jap spelling..
so now sort of 胸有成竹 to take spelling..
:)

haiz..the number of people who come for CS106 lecture is getting lesser & lesser..dun she realised that she's not interesting at all? so why do i turn up for all her lecture? haiz..i'm just too 乖 for words..
hahahahahhahahhhahahahhahahahaha.....

Open Arms - Journey

2006-03-03T13:25:00.000+08:00

This song kept playing in 格斗天王..goes really well with the show..

Open Arms - Journey
Lying beside you, here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine

Softly you whisper, you’re so sincere
How could our live be so blind

We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side

So now I come to you, with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you’ll see what your love means to me
Open arms

Living without you, living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
But now that you’ve come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay

(chorus)

duno..haha..

2006-03-03T13:14:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging alot..got a lot of work to be done..

CS103 - i haven decide on what to do..how?!?!?! presenting in 2 weeks time..
CS105 - survey questions are up..but duno approve anot..
CS106 - speech in 2 weeks time..but the topics to choose from sux!!!
CS108 - 12 page essay which i've not started at all due in 2 weeks also!! and we need to do filming!! that'll take very long..plus editing even longer!!!
HC801 - wondering if i shld S/U it..scared i cannot do well writing in chinese..
LJ80 - how to finish learning all the jap vocabs in one month?

but good things..
1) i pass the jap mid term..thou i could hv done better..
2) i managed to hand in a chinese essay that's ard 900 words!!!
3) i got lots of things for my birthday!

in addition to the previous post,
- Hanyu send me a sweater all the way from taipei!!! felt so loved!! thanks so much!!
- Rock people gave me $40 OP value card..and i bought a 3/4 pants..
- Princess Anna gave me Max Lucado's lastest book - Cure for the Common Life..thanks dear..
- Camellia gave me a handmade card and metal bookmark which i'm hanging on my bag!
- Yuan Hong and Li Ting gave me famous amos cookies! but i eat finish le..
- Berber bought shows to watch..thou she benefit too..haha..
- Mehmeh & gu jie eaach gave me $50 to buy things..but i'm saving them for my sch fees..haha..see..i so guai.. :P

and there's more to come..
- i'm meeting the vj bballers tmr..so i'll get more presents..hee..
- ktv treat from biaojie..but duno when that'll come cos i'm too busy with sch work!!
-

Happy birthday

2006-02-22T17:25:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to me..
Happy birthday to me..
Happy birthday to me..
Happy birthday to me..

haha..just wanted to sing to myself..
cos i'm all alone in hall..
but i'm quite happy..
cos SMSes kept coming in..
and ppl kept wishing me on MSN..

Thanks ppl!!!

Thanks to my vj female classmates for the Max Lucado's book - Travelling Light.. (yeah..i got new book to read!!!)
Thanks Mag..for a new pair of jeans though it's too long..n e pair of earrings which i duno when i'll ever go pierce ear holes to wear..
Thanks aveline..for e sweet handphone sling which is super heart warming..but also super long that's it's twice e length of my handphone..
Thanks ting..for e dinner (tom yam soup w dong fen w hotdogs w fishballs w golden mushrooms) and e company..
Thanks Xiang..for e coming earphones u are getting for me.. :)
Thanks shan..for e present that u've prepared..haha..ur present is with me too..
Thanks hanyu..for remembering though u're all e way in taiwan now..take care ya?

oh ya..interesting thing that i've been wanting to share..
my birthday is 22nd feb = 222
it's so coincidental that my caregroup leader's car plate number is 2222..
timothy! i love your car! cos of the car plate number!!! haha...

2006-02-22T10:52:00.000+08:00

Chance upon this link that can let me know myself more through the eyes of friends..so pls click here to let me know more about what you think of me..

100 things

2006-02-16T10:47:00.000+08:00

Meme of 100

1 Birthdate?
22 feb

2 Place of birth?
singapore

3 Blood type?
O+

4 Height?
156cm

5 Weight?
i haven weigh for a long time..

6 Shoe size?
depends..ard size 4..

7 Work? Study?
each have their good sides

8 Childhood nickname?
me n my cousin both were called
mu lao hu (母老虎)
cos we're born in e year of e tiger

9 Average hours you sleep in a day?
six hours

10 Time you go to bed?
about 1am, sometimes earlier and sometimes later

11 Any siblings?
two older sisters

12 Eyesight ? short-sighted, long-sighted or perfect?
shortsighted

13 What languages do you speak?
english, mandarin, a little cantonese, a little japanese

14 What languages would you like to speak?
malay & french

15 Nickname on Messenger?
jO[aNnA] - (followed by whatever i feel like putting)

16 What do you collect?
letters, postcards...

17 Model of handphone you are using?
nokia 3210

18 What is on your shopping list?
all listed in my birthday wishlist

19 Favourite t-shirt brand?
not much of a preference..
but quite like converse n adidas

20 Favourite cut of jeans?
no preference

21 Favourite fashion designer?
no preference

22 Favourite clothing label?
no preference

23 Favourite shoe label?
adidas, asics

24 Favourite bag label?
no preference.

25 Most dominant colour in your wardrobe?
black for gg out clothes
white for home clothes

26 Most worn-pair of shoes?
pink OP slippers that meh bought for me

27 Favourite shampoo?
Lux (e mask one)

28 Favourite conditioner?
i dun use conditioner

29 Favourite bath product?
dettol shower foam

30 Favourite facial product?
olay

31 Favourite cosmetics?
lip balm? it's e only "make-up" i own

32 Favourite art movement?
none

33 Favourite artist?
none

34 Favourite gallery?
none

35 Favourite cold drink?
green tea & ice lemon tea

36 Favourite hot drink?
milo, tea with milk

37 Favourite flavour of ice-cream?
chocolate

38 Favourite cuisine?
no preference

39 Favourite sandwich?
ham & cheese or just spread with nutella

40 Favourite cake?
pandan, mango

41 Favourite chocolate?
no preference as long as it's not white choc

42 Favourite fast food?
mos burger & BK

43 Favourite sushi?
spicy salmon (sakae sushi)

44 Favourite breakfast?
no preference..i dun even eat at times

45 Spaghetti ? tomato, cream or pesto sauce?
tomato

46 Beef ? rare, medium rare, medium, well-done?
medium well..

47 Restaurant you frequent most?
fast food restaurants

48 Best dining experience?
with close friends and loved ones

49 Worst dining experience?
with people i dont like
*it's e company that matters*

50 Favourite book?
the bible! God's word!

51 Favourite movie?
currently is In Her Shoes

52 Favourite artiste writer?
no preference

53 Favourite actor?
raymond lam, ron ng

54 Favourite actress?
myolie wu, flora chan

55 Favourite record?
a lot lei..erm..Nan Ren Mei by tvb male artistes?

56 Favourite singer?
raymond lam! JJ Lin!

57 Favourite band?
erm..casting crowns?

58 Favourite lyrics?
too many to say..

59 Favourite TV show?
most shows by raymond, ron, bowie lam, myolie wu & flora chan

60 Favourite newspapers?
no preference

61 Favourite magazine?
no preference

62 Favourite flower?
tulips

63 Favourite animal?
dog, dolphin

64 Favourite country?
singapore, hong kong

65 Favourite street (in your country)?
liang seah street (food!)

66 Favourite street (overseas)?
sesame street? haha..lame me.

67 Favourite sport?
basketball!

68 Scariest movie?
can't think of any..not very scary i guess..

69 Funniest movie?
a lot lei..i laugh easily..

70 Favourite leisure activity?
watching tv/vcds/tapes, playing bball, ktv-ing

71 Favourite public transport?
bus

72 Favourite weather?
cool but not raining

73 Dream honeymoon destination?
Rome (after watching Truimph in the Skies)

74 Computer you use?
fujitsu S7020

75 Wallpaper on your computer?
collage of pics of myolie n raymond

76 Screen saver on your computer?
my picture folder

77 How many hours on the internet a day?
more than 5 hours

78 Favourite blog?
mine. haha

79 Favourite news site?
tvcity.tvb.com

80 Favourite site?
mine again

81 First pet?
never had a pet.

82 Favourite cartoon from childhood?
my little pony, captain planet

83 Favourite toy from childhood?
dun remember..erm..a train i got for 1st position?

84 What makes you smile?
in the past, when i thought of this her that i know..but now......
now..happy events, peishan, hanyu, many ppl..

85 What makes you cry?
my family, devastating events, my work..

86 Which celebrity would you like to be?
nobody

87 What colour would you be if you are a crayon?
brown

88 If you can go back in time, which period would you want to be in?
period sounds so far..i just wanna go back to 2003 so that i can have sec 3 & 4 again..

89 If you can have your own business, what would you venture into?
food industry, recording company, artiste management company

90 What TV program would you like to go on?
amazing race..can travel round e world..

91 How satisfied are you with your current situation?
satisfied

92 What would you rather be doing if you have a choice?
i chose what im doing

93 The most important thing that has happened in your life?
knowing Jesus..

94 What do you think you'll be doing 5 years down the road?
working in a media company, hopefully

95 Most desired now?
to complete all projects

96 Biggest worry now?
grades and school fees

97 Most unforgettable incident?
a day in year 2002

98 New year resolution?
none, because i know i wont keep them

99 Your motto in life?
listen to the Holy Spirit

100 Who do you want to answer ?100 Things About Me??
i dun care..just do if you like..

2006-02-15T17:30:00.000+08:00

Finally decided to blog about neng's tag on my blog..here goes.........

10 years ago,

primary 4..
remembered that it was a fun class cos i like
my form teacher, Ms Stacey Chan..
we even speculated that she had something
gg on with e next class form teacher..
looking back..haha..we're so childish..
Kids.
but those were really fun days..
where there was no worries..

5 years ago,

secondary 3..
remembered that i din really like my seating arrangement cos i was sitting with this girl whom i duno..but God always turn it for good..
and this time round, He turned it superb!
the one sitting next to me is my most treasured friend now - Peishan.
the fun we had in class..copying homework..commenting on teachers..writing notes in between ourselves..haha..what fun! really miss her..
meet up soon ya?
and besides her, i got to know this wonderful class later known as
4 Noisy oops Noble N..
really miss those times when we'll just crap ard with e teachers n waste their time..the jokes that were extended like siao by us..haha..most memorable: 5 mins joke became 45 mins joke..that's how powerful our class strength was..most united class!

1 year ago,

working..
remember working at M&C..made some good friends thou i seldom keep in contact with them now cos i got sch..but remember finding admin job boring..hee..then also working at RGBC..e period of time when i was working the most cos i was free..haha..had lots of fun!

5 foods i enjoy,

i love food..5 is ont enough..shall write those i eat more recently..hee..
1) Pasta -- i like mostly tomato-based sauces, but i'm fine with cream sauce too..
2) Sushi -- spicy salmon (note: could eat sakae buffet in e past..dun think i still can now..)
3) Chilli crab -- the pasta i love most from Creation is the spicy crab pasta!!!
4) Bread -- i'm actually a bread person compared to rice person..so i'm not a 饭桶.. :)
5) Brownies -- prefers brownies to cookies..

5 songs i know all the words to,

honestly..i know more than 5..so i'll just write e more recent ones..
1) 忘记伤害 by raymond lam
2) 理想情人 by rainie yang
3) 好心好报 by alex fong & stephy tang
4) 接受 by fish leong
5) 心计 by hacken lee

5 favourite television shows,

i love to watch tv lor..how to choose..hmm...
1) untraceble evidence 1 & 2
2) survivor's law
3) the last breakthrough
4) healing hands 3
5) take my word for it
haha..after thinking for very long..settled on 5 tvb dramas..

5 bad habits,

1) lying on my bed before i even bathe
2) slacking ard at home until i need to be ask to go bathe
3) not bathing before lessons cos i always wake up with just enuf time to wash up
4) combing my hair again n again although no one finds it untidy
5) leaving my work to the last minute

5 biggest joys,

1) when i know of Jesus' wonderous love for me
2) my family though i really get upset at times
3) my cedar bballers esp. mag
4) my vj bballers esp. ling n hanyu
5) my bestest friends esp. peishan n huineng

5 people i [might] tagged to do this quiz,

i duno..will i? maybe..
1) xuelin
2) mer air
3) aveline
4) ally
5) magdalene

v day cont'd

2006-02-15T12:37:00.000+08:00

realised that my previous entry made my sister cried..
well..i didn't mean to..
guess i was just having some mood..
especially because of something that i saw again this morn..
well..i can't help but feel sad about it..

teared while walking to e mrt station..
teared while on the mrt..
teared while people are watching..
teared while on the bus..
teared while i was back in my room..

finally..it stopped when i saw my frens..
thanks to my frens who bring joy into my life..
but...................................
issit really true?
haha..guess i'm a bit skeptical..
i just like to put on e brave front in front of others..

me.
ironic.

but thks to everyone who comforted me after reading my blog..
thks meh..for being e sister i know will always care for me thou i'll grumble at times..(like now..hee..)
thks ah leng..for being e cousin who cared..
thks avy..for cheering me up..
thks jane n isa..for being here when i needed it..

Valentine's Day

2006-02-15T02:17:00.000+08:00

Valentine's Day.
A day when most people celebrate.
A day when most people feel loved & cherished.

Me.
Felt very much unloved.
Felt very much alone.

Not because i dun hv a boyfriend to love me.
But because i dun hv a family that love me.

No one cares what i do.
No one cares where i go.
No one cares who i go out with.
No one cares when i'll be home.
No one cares why i do the things i do.

Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?
Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?

Why does he always do things to make us cry & break our hearts?
Why does she always scold him & us & make a din out of something trivia?
Why does she always not come home & even when she do, leaves again?
Why does she always watch & not care about things happening in the house?

Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?
Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?

Lord, i can only turn to You.
Lord, only You can make all these change.

You are my desire
Everytime i'm weak i run to You
You're my hiding place and my comfort
My refuge and my fortress

Lord i need Your mercy
Lord i need Your grace to see me through
Everytime i'm hurt i will run to You
Let me dwell in Your secret place

Let Your presence fall on me
Let Your Spirit fall like rain
Let me be refreshed
Let me be restored
Only You can heal me, Lord

Let Your presence fall on me
Let Your Spirit fall like rain
Let me be refreshed
Let me be restored
Only You can really heal my heart, O Lord

hanyu

2006-02-09T09:49:00.000+08:00

went all e way back to aljunied yesterday to meet hanyu before she flies off this morning..haha..i was e only junior there..e rest were all seniors - amy, qin jia, michelle, violet, may...extra me. but who cares la..hee..i like to be extra lei...(just kidding..) went to eat 油条大王..when i finally reached hm was like 11plus..ate dinner n bathe..12 plus..wanted to do my 105..but too tired le..so went to slp..was "shocked" out of bed by ber cos she's running late for work..it was already 6.15am n she's wking at 7am..who ask her watch DVD watch until so late..fell back aslp for 10 mins before getting up..decided to not be tempted by hanyu's words telling me to skip 830am lecture..so drag myself out n was even early for lec..haha..i'm impressed with myself..haha..

anyway..hanyu's gone..hmm..gonna miss hving her ard..
in hall, in sch, in aljunied..
take care of urself over there k?
settled down le must write back to us..(email la..)
we'll be waiting for u to come back...

hmm..wonder wat's it like over there? not necessary taiwan..but just overseas..e only place i've been to is malaysia..genting highlands..how pathetic..i wanna travel round e world!!
看看这个花花世界, 主创造的天地万物..
i wanna go israel..
walk the places that Jesus walked on n experience e wonder..
i wanna go taiwan..
see the places seen on variety shows n e beautiful hses in idol dramas..
i wanna go hongkong..
see the places where TVB dramas were filmed n see TVB station..
i wanna go korea..
just to see the location of Full House..
i wanna go venice..
to experience living on water..
i wanna go rome..
to see the location where Truimph in the skies was filmed..

xiang buying me headphones

2006-02-09T09:00:00.000+08:00

yeah! one item off my wishlist..
Xiang is gg to buy me headphones!
Yeah!
THANKS XIANG!!!

additional list

2006-02-08T01:27:00.000+08:00

birthday wish list just gets longer..

1. headphones..my old ones are spoilt..now i cant listen to my cd player..
2. Max Lucado's lastest book!!!
3. new specs!

haha..still 15 days away..
will e list continue?
well..
i think so..
haha.....

hmm..

2006-02-07T17:30:00.000+08:00

removed my previous post.
din want ppl to ask questions.

so tired.
ate hall 13, blk 64, level 7 amphi reunion dinner.
ate the 3rd cookies n cream ice cream cake in 10 days.

15 days later.
will i get one too?

but i dowan cookies n cream.
chocolate will do.
:)

...

2006-02-02T10:25:00.000+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday, ber ber!!! and 21 days to mine.. ;p

it's been so long since i last blogged..well..CNY is over..there's really nothing much to talk abt..

CNY was ok..like usual..but getting more n more boring..cos nobody is ard much these days..only got nicole left with me with all e aunties n uncles..and ang pao money is getting lesser n lesser.. :(

got lots of work to do..really cannot slack anymore already..got to write my 106 speech by fri and hand in 105 next week..

good news: my birthday will be during the one week recess week..
YEAH!!!
shall slack on that day..hee..anyway..

birthday wishlist:
1) Motorola V3/V3i
2) mp3 (ipod or samsung)
3) digital camera (ah ber say she might..but i think like quite unlikely..)
4) adidas watch (mer air say will buy..really? :p)
5) TVB drama vcds..
6) Max Lucado's books
7) Steve McVey's books
8) Jeans
9) Basketball

that's all for now..but if you guys wanna buy me other things also can..i won't mind..just dun get me soft toys!!! i have no use for it..

my name

2006-01-12T17:30:00.000+08:00

attended CS106: Speech & Presentation tutorial today.
& to see our public speaking skills, we're to talk about our name.

How did you get your name?
What does your name means?
Do you like your name?
& any other thing you can think of associating with your name.

Koo Mei Yan Joanna
how did i get my name?
honestly, i duno..but i know my christian name - Joanna, was chosen by my aunt instead of by my parents..my chinese name..i duno also..but me n my sisters all have "mei" as the second word of our name..

What does my name means?
Joanna in hebrew means "God is gracious"
Mei (美) means beautiful
Yan (燕) means ??? hee..i also duno..

Do i like it?
Well..i like Joanna cos it speaks of God's grace for me..& everything is bcos of Him & His finished work on the cross..
my surname is Koo (符)..so i am a happy & blessed girl cos 我是幸福(姓符)的..ok..if you're not chinese..dun bother to find out..if you understand..it's lame la..but true right? haha..
my chinese name is Mei Yan (美燕) which can means beautiful (美艳)..but i dun think i am..haha..& i used to have this childish thot that if i ever become a star..my name will be so traditional aka 老土 aka obiang..how to be famous? haahaa..ridiculous me!!!

anyway..funny things abt my name..
in Cedar, there's me & joanna lee in bball & then sec 2,3 & 4 we're in the same class..
then..during sec 3, there was the J.Lo craze..so we are called j.koo & j.lee by the class..up till now they also call us that..& i dun think that will change..& during O levels preparations, me & j.lee studied together after lessons in sch..so when ppl say bye to us, it'll be "Bye, Joanna...s" haha..must add "s" behind to indicate they acknowledge both of us..so funny...
in CS, there was this tutor last sem - kk (102) who keep mixing my name up with this other girl in the class called joanne..e thing is..he remembers both of us..just that he'll call joanne joanna & call me joanne..weird teacher...

well..i can't think of anything else abt my name that's worth mentioning..so if you hv..can tell me..hee....

2006-01-11T16:39:00.000+08:00

public holiday.
ppl go out and play.

i go to work again.
from 11 to 9.
what to do?

got double pay.
so must work.

2006-01-08T02:40:00.000+08:00

***1st week of sch***
tues: had 2 lectures in e morn..Dr Aquila is entertaining! think i'll enjoy her lectures..Dr Lee W.P. was super enthu n trying very hard to make e boring module of research to sound fun..so funny lor..after that i had 3+ hrs of training at night! so tiring! felt like my body was breaking apart..but it was super enjoyable!!! haha..do i sound very 自虐? but really..hard n intensive training then is call training ma..i like this kind of training.. :p

wed: woke up super early cos got 830 lec..barely had 4 hrs of slp..but lec was fun! hee..it was "understanding chinese cinema" which means 1 movie every lecture! & it's like literature..you are really required to go in depth into e movie and discuss abt why there's such themes, e historical background n stuff lidat..after that was 105 tutorial! 1st week only & we had to had in a write up by next week..sucks! but e tutor like not bad..so hopefully it's ok..at night..there was hall supper..haha..so fun..

thurs: got 105 lec again..then after that i went to work n bible study..

fri: came back from hm for 106 lec..e lecturer is so yiao! & she doesn't smile at all! sighs..gg to be another boring lec..but she a bit drama mama..in e middle of e lec she shouted "BOO!" to get our attention n to point out something..so funny..after that i went for my 1st ever jap lesson! it's so weird cos once i step in, e tutor spoke to me in jap! & i dun understand a single word! so cheem! but fun!
ohayo gozaimasu! watashi wa Joanna desu.
after that went for caregroup..kok haw's last cg with us..gonna miss him..this mighty man of God! & timothy is my new caregroup leader..anyway..timothy was sharing what Pastor Darren was sharing abt e holy spirit & all we need to do to answer God's prompting is just simply to obey..& i remember one testimony to share!

During e exam period last sem, i was a bit panicking cos i din study..i started studying e day before e 1st exam, CS101..when i started..nothing was gg into my brain..then i felt this prompting to read out loud from e text/notes..i've nv studied reading out loud..so i feel quite silly..but since shuyuan was not in..i had e hall room to myself..so i studied out loud! & i could remember more easily!! Praise God!! it's really that simple! and i got a B- for it..this year is definitely gg to be a year where i'll be led by the holy spirit!

2006-01-05T05:20:00.000+08:00

What's Your True Color?

Joanna, your true color is Brown!

You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

busy week..

2006-01-04T17:30:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging..had a pretty busy week..so i shall briefly say what i've been doing..

- 24/12 -
played IHG match in which we won..think e score was 78 to 2 or somewhere ard there..then went to biaojie's hse in e evening..watched "A Blessed Christmas" together..haha..she keep ooh-ing & aah-ing abt whether can see her face on TV (she was part of e white christmas tree)..anyway..it's great to see NCC's worship leaders singing on national TV..glorifying Jesus!!!
after that i watched 3 episodes of 天涯侠医..

- 25/12 -
went to church service at indoor stadium..then went to eat lunch with gu jie, biaojie, diana, sandra and sandra's fren at marina square foodcourt..after that met mum before gg to 三舅父's hse for christmas bbq..had fun thou i keep getting suan by tong 舅父..

- 26/12 -
sentosa outing with my family..played e sentosa luge for e 1st time..it's really quite fun!! but quite a long wait cos e queue was LONG!!! then me, ber n biaojie just slack ard siloso beach when gu jie & 叔叔 bring grandma & jeremy in to underwater world..

- 27/12 -
slack at home e whole morn n early afternoon..then went to sue ann's hse for a sleepover with jane, shuyuan, sun xu n huiyi (but she nv stay over)..ate mac for dinner while watching "Mean Girls" on HBO..then we watch dvds - "Amityville Horror" (which is not very horrifying cos i watch b4..) n 15 mins of "Princess Diaries 2" (it's quite boring lei..1st one nicer..) after that..we went to her room n had girls' talk till 5+ am!! work up at ard 7+ cos she hafta go out..

- 28/12 -
well..after e sleepover, went market with grandma before gg hm to slp..woke up & went back to hall for level 7 steamboat dinner with 6 other ppl..hanyu, susan, wenting, joselyn, stella n tanny..had so much fun! haha..(photos can be found on hanyu's blog..) anyway..it was a healthy dinner..haha..except e ice cream at e end.. ;p

- 29/12 -
training in e morn..after that..rush to orchard to go kbox with xuelin at cine..had so much fun singing with her! all e cantonese songs.. :) so glad to have this fren who's a TVB fan like me! hee..let's go ktv again ya?

- 30/12 -
went to ikea with biaojie to look at stuff for her new hse..& i bought brown paper to wrap stuff..haha..then went to her hse to watch 阿旺新传..

- 31/12 -
spent e entire day watching 阿旺新传..only stop to go buy lunch or go toilet..hee..but i went hm at night..shall blog abt e show aother time..

- 01/01 -
usual sunday..go service..then work..till 9pm this time..
difference?
i finally took all my christmas presents hm..
fav is this white pencil case from shihui! love it!

- 02/01 -
went to eat lunch with RGBC ppl at hokkaido hot pot at Paradiz Centre..
lillian, james, nathan, val, angela, shihui n danny..
& they treated me & danny!!! thanks dears!!!
felt so blessed n favoured!!! e food is GOOD!
recommended!!! shld be ard $25-$30 per head..
after that i went hm to get stuff before gg back hall..

- 03/01 -
school started..wat more shld i say? :P

results + steamboat

2005-12-24T04:51:00.000+08:00

Praise God! for his goodness and mercy shall follow me all e days of my life!!

got back my results..though they can't be considered as fantastic..they're better than wat i expected..and that can only be the work of God! why do i say that? cos i only started studying all e 5 different modules a day or two before e exams...so i totally dun deserve such grades..i was even prepared to fail..but hey! God is gracious..and His favour is all over me!!! Amen!!!

my results are as follow:
CS101 - B-
CS102 - B
CS104 - B
CS107 - B
CS111 - B

anyway..i've registered for the coming sem le..din get my 1st choice of timetable..but it's not bad la..at least my fridays will no longer end at 630pm..yeah!!! applied to take jap lessons..haha..hopefully i'll get..cos i'm still on e waitlist.. *cross finger*

went to eat steamboat yesterday with my vj bball teammates and our seniors..so fun..as usual..yos n jialing were e clowns..with an additional lingling to play with yos..haha..but we had fun!! very long nv see them (except ling, hanyu, ting n mayling) ..may look nice in pink, qin jia still as pretty, mic look funny in specs, ally..erm grew fatter (haha!!!), yos is legally blonde(supposed to be red but her hair look more blonde than red..), jialing's hair is SO long n xiang's hair got shorter..haha.. basically..that sums up all who's present..(except ling, hanyu, ting, mayling n me..)
pics can be found at the vj bball blog..

hope we'll have this kind of gathering often..
love them.

2005-12-14T16:56:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS WISHLIST!!!
anyone wanna buy for me?

1. Digicam - Sony Cybershot DSC-T5
2. Handphone - Motorola V3
3. mp3 player (if e handphone hv then dun need la..)
4. Slippers (OP/Roxy)
5. Adidas watch!! (but i dun see it in e shop..)
6. Jeans! (i dun care wat brand..)
7. Giodano jacket (white is nice but easily dirtied..)
8. Max Lucado's lastest book (but others also can..as long as i dun hv)
9. Finding Favour with the King (i forgot who's e author)
10. Good grades for my exams..( that only God can give me ;p)

anyway..that's a small portion of my list..actually still got a lot..but i wanna blog abt something else so i'll leave it at 10 for now..

played my 1st hall bball match on monday vs hall 11..haha..we won 84 - 04!
haah..21 times more..quite a ridulous score right? but anyway..for the 1st time i scored so much..in my 7yrs of playing bball..this match is my highest scoring one..with 2 3-pt shoots! yeah! haha..duno why it went in lei..so tyco cos i couldn't really see with e GLARING sun! also bcos of e sun..now my arms are red and hurting..got sun burnt! wear clothes also pain!! arrggh!!!

went to DARE service on sat (10/12) for e 1st time..actually i'm way over the age to attend...but wanted to go give biaojie moral support! her 1st backup singing!! haha..but i can't really hear her cos e kids are super noisy!! but they're really quite fun to look at..they'll add their own lyrics to the songs..and some accompanied with actions..so fun! shall get Val to teach me..haha...got a whole new admiration for Val to be able to "tahan" e noise and energy level of these kids..it's really a great anointing to be in the ministry! and my new "idol" is deacon dan! he can really sing!! haahaa..go watch e christmas show ( i forgot the name) coming up on channel 5..deacon dan will be singing the sing "Mary did you know" with sandra..

i got the TVB calender!!! million thanks to Xuelin who ordered them for me!! thanks girl!!! ron is so shuai inside..haha..but i like e one with moses chan too!! too lazy to find e pics to put up..so if you wanna see can come my hse..it's hanging in e living room..actually was thinking of bringing back to hall..but when i open it up at home..mum & grandma both say hang in e hse.. :( now i go hm then can see my ron ng..lol..anyway..gave one to biaojie also..she's super happy to receive it..haha...
anyway..while at simei waiting for Xuelin..i went to this christian bookshop, True Vine and bought this book "The Prayer of Jabez" by Bruce Wilkinson at $5 (christmas offer)..it's a really good book..thinking of if i shld go back to buy more to bless ppl as christmas pressie..but was thinking of gg to campus crusade also lei..maybe is cheaper? i haven go Acts at china square and tecman at bras brasah also..hmm...i haven get christmas presents for ppl..how?!!

no time!! no time!! why? cos of work!!

i'm super tired!! been wking like non-stop lor..then got hall games and trainings...travelling here and there..work from 6/12 to 8/12 to cover for Val who went for DARE camp..then on 9/12 to cover for lillian who took 1/2 day leave..then on 10/12 from 11 to 9pm cos of christmas promotion..then usual sunday from 8am to 4pm..was super tired cos of e crowd! then mon (12/12) got interhall bball match lor..travelled from hm to Pulau NTU..after match when to eat n then to JP with ling n hanyu..then went src to watch ting play..saw usha also..haha..then i went to bathe before gg to e other side of S'pore (Simei) to meet Xuelin to collect e TVB calenders i ordered..then today work from 11 to 6pm b4 coming back to ntu again..tmr morn got bball training..then i'll got to wk again till 9pm..thurs wking full day..then fri morn gotta come back for hockey training b4 gg back to work..then sat got Campus event - Eucharistia 2005 at sentosa..sun got wk again..

my life is just full of work n work n work n hall games! i can't even find time to do christmas shopping! arrggh!! maybe i shld just forget it and write everyone cards? haahaa....

2005-12-03T04:40:00.000+08:00

so tired!! been training for these few days..bball trainings n hockey training..haha..1st time i ever touch a hockey stick..realised that my left hand is quite retarded..haha..very hard to control e movement that i can make to e hockey ball with e stick..but quite fun la..a whole new experience..so not bad... :)

had to go to work soon..arrggh!! haha..cos i'm aching all over!! i just wanna rest my body n get some sleep..bleah..

papa fell down at work yesterday..hurt so much that berber took him to A&E yesterday night..hope it'll heal soon..duno wat i can do..so shall buy dessert back for him tonight.. :)

"Out of the eater came something to eat,
And out of the strong came something sweet."
- Judges 14:14 -

Knowing that you are the righteousness of God in Christ,
--> Out of challenges we'll get blessings,
--> And out of strong challenges we'll get sweet victory.

these 2 weeks..

2005-12-01T09:10:00.000+08:00

hihi..haven blog for a super long time..din hv internet access at hm..then too lazy to bring laptop to mac to use their wireless network..so now that i'm back in hall..shall blog abt e past 2 weeks..

14/11/05 - after exam...
went hm to put my things..then while waiting for berber to return hm..
i watched untraceable evidence 2 [鉴证实录2] again..my favourite tvb series..
it's so nice to watch flora and bowie acting together again..
anyway..after that went with ber to suntec to eat dinner (swensens) with biaojie..then to my long awaited kbox session!!!

funny event at kbox...
Ber: Chinese tea.
Biaojie & Me: Blah blah blah...
KBox: (takes order, pops out of the room and back in three secs later) The Chinese tea you want hot or cold?
Us: (look at one another in surprise, then Ber responds) Hot.
KBox: Ok. (leaves the room)
Us: (unanimously) Got people drink cold Chinese tea one meh?! Yah lor! So weird!

anyway..there's finally tvb series songs in kbox!!
1. 心计 by hacken lee 李克勤 (theme song of 酒店风云)
2. 别怪他 by ron ng 吴卓羲 (sub-theme song of 酒店风云)
3. 三角两面 by kevin cheng 鄭嘉穎 (sub-theme song of yummy yummy)

15/11/05 - 16/11/05
spent e days watching untraceable evidence..heehee..

17/11/05 - 25/11/05 , 27/11/05 - Work
work at RGBC for at least 8hrs per day i think..so tired lor..
all e christmas promotion stocks..have to tag n bring out to e bookshop n find space to display n find space to keep e extra stocks..but thank God it's all done! christmas promotion has started..so feel free to come to Rock Gifts & Book Centre to purchase your christmas gifts for friends and family.. :)

24/11/05 - JTC event
besides working at RGBC in e afternoon, actually went to work at raffles city convention centre with camellia, felda, min wei and david..i was e chief usher (but actually i was e only usher from e event company) so was just standing ard to point out e venues for e JTC staff and their clients..a new experience..it was actually an ok job..except that my feet hurts A LOT from wearing heels for so many hours.. :(

26/11/05 & 28/11/05 - Healing Hands 3 [妙手人心 3]
went to biaojie's hse on both days to watch..finished e 40 episodes in 2 days..hahaa..
it was a nice show..must watch k? but i dun really like e ending...cos henry (bowie lam) & sarah (melissa ng) is not together at e end..so sad..so wasted..they actually like each other alot..
anyway..after watching the show..hmm..really felt that women are complicated beings..haha..
e female leads all hv so many worries and reasons for not being with someone, so many worries and reasons for all sort of things...big n small..
anyway..e best scenes in the show is those with henry & chris and those with henry & sarah..(except when they broke up..cos that's sad!!!) their conversations are so funny..so witty..

29/11/05 - this coming fri 2/12/05
inter school games started..inter hall games training started..
that's why i'm back in hall..haha..
anyway..yesterday (29/11) played a match vs NIE..we lost..but i had fun!!!
very long nv exercise and touch bball..this morn wake up full of aches..hahaa..
later got training somemore..tmr will ache more i think.. :(

think that's all..left out a lot of stuff..maybe i'll write again tonight..hee..

exams are over!!!

2005-11-15T05:08:00.000+08:00

yeah!!! exams are over!!! im free!!!
so so so so so so so happy!!!
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala.......

CS104 was ok..ha..cos we already had e question paper beforehand..but think i miss out a lot of points that i thot up before e exam..but cant recall in e exam hall..but who cares la..it's over!! thou he say can email him if you want..but i couldn't be bothered! haha..so just let it be..

my exams are officially in God's hands cos there's nothing that i can do to improve my grade le..all is attributed to His grace to me!!!

anyway..i'm gg hm n slack n then gg kbox n then doing all e things that i aim to enjoy after exams!! haha..

to those who are reading yet still having exams..
加油!!! all the best to you guys..
ur exams will be over soon too..haha..
i'm just ending earlier..haha...

happy happy day!!!
perfect day!!!
完美的一天!!!
:)

CS107

2005-11-12T10:56:00.000+08:00

CS107 is over!! yeah!! but it's not that good la..
there's 2 parts to e paper..
1st part was ok..answer 4 out of 7 questions..
2nd part was horrigible!!!
we're supposed to write a newspaper article..
based on STATISTICS!!!
like Hello!! how to write la..
1. of e zillions topics tt exist in this world, why stats?
2. she nv ever taught us to write based on stats..
3. e stats is on s'pore population..how interesting is that?
just pray for me that she'll hopefully give me effort marks for at least attempting to write for her instead of leaving it blank?! haha...

anyway..on to happier thots..
one more paper and i'm over with my 1st period of exams in uni!!!
CS104: Intro to promotional communication
we're already given e paper..so i'll write it hopefully by tmr afternoon n spend e rest of e weekend memorising e answer i wrote..haha...

after exams i wanna watch:
MOVIES!!!
1. all about love
2. just like heaven
3. harry potter & e goblet of fire
TVB SHOWS!!!
1. 情迷黑森林
2. 老婆大人
3. 人间蒸发
4. any shows with raymond or ron!
5. all e vcds at biaojie's hse..
6. 继续无敌掌门人
7. tvb anniversary 2005 at xuelin's hse?

but there's lots of other things to do...
1. work at RGBC to earn my sch n hostel fees
2. play bball! IHG & ISG back in ntu
3. go cycling at east coast
4. go swimming so that i can get more tan
5. plan RGBC christmas party?
6. make christmas presents
7. organise 4 Noisy N's class gathering?
8. Go KBOX!!! i wanna sing to my heart's content!!

111

2005-11-10T09:45:00.000+08:00

hmm..maybe i'm getting used to writing more? haha..111 was better then 102 n 101..but then..maybe bcos it was open book exam? haha..but e bad thing about open book is that there's so much to write that i dun hv time..spend like 1 hr 10 mins on e 1st qn!!! arrgh! n i haven even writing all e points..how? then e other 2 qns left i also anyhow write..super no time..maybe bcos i wrote too much crap? think uni exams actually requires e mian point..not much elaboration needed..but then not used to it la..i just kept writing n elaborating..haha..too bad..just hope it'll turn out right! pray for me ya?

anyway..anyone wanna watch "Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire" with me when it come out on the 17th? i'm thinking of a lot of pple to ask..but can't decide who..so if u ask me 1st..then i'll pick you!!! haha..so bu yao lian right? who cares? i wanna get over exams n slack!! it's already half over! left 2 papers only!! yeah!! i wanna watch "just like heaven" too!

102..

2005-11-09T15:20:00.000+08:00

ever watched medical shows?
Healing Hands...
or detective/police shows?
Police Investigation Files, Untraceable Evidence, ...

Well..do you remember scenes where the doctors can't save someone and had to announce e death of e person? they'll look at the time & then say "Certified"..

I'm now e doctor..........................

CS101 : 7 Nov 2005 - 1130 am - CERTIFIED
CS102 : 8 Nov 2005 - 330pm - Half Certified

why? i dun like you!

2005-11-08T13:15:00.000+08:00

Why does some things or some ppl just keep circling you n pester you?
Why can't they just get e hints & go away? Why?
GO AWAY!!!

我不喜欢你
我不喜欢开不开心都收收埋埋
我不喜欢开不开心都藏在心里
我不喜欢你

我要做回以前的自己

CS101

2005-11-08T13:06:00.000+08:00

CS101 - Intro to Comm Studies exam..
what did i write? CRAP!!! haiz...
4 essays..bet none of it make sense..how?

CS102 - Intro to Journalism n Publishing tmr..
i never said i wanna be a journalist..
can i dun take it?

exams..

2005-10-26T00:06:00.000+08:00

yeah..finally finished all my projects and assignments! left exams to handle..

spent e last week rushing my 101 summary assignment and 111 report..101 was ok..just sort of copy and paste..haha..but 111 was horrible! spent so many nights doing it..arrgghh!!! but thank God it's over! haha..40 page report..we had 51 pages..hope she will finish reading all..hee...

exams in less than 2 weeks time..n i haven study! oh no! must start le..if not..........

Love me

2005-10-20T06:05:00.000+08:00

Happy 4N Day!!! haha..to all 4 Noisy N ppl..really miss all of you..hope to see you all soon..still remember our pizza hut outing back in 2002? happy times!!! must hv more of that ya?

anyway..Got this song from mehmeh..realy really nice..
reminds me of jj's song: 会有那么一天..
equally sweet n super nice song..

Love Me
I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me.
He said, “Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I’ll be.
But I’m not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again, I’ll be loving you.
Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I’d never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I’ll be.
But I’m not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again, I’ll be loving you.
Love, me.

Between now and then, till I see you again, I’ll be loving you.
Love, me.

Harry Potter & the Half-Blood Prince

2005-10-18T12:52:00.000+08:00

just finish reading Harry Potter & the Half-Blood Prince..DUN like e ending!!! hahaa..guess i'm still a girl who wishes to see happy ending?

dun like Dumbledore dying..dun like e death eaters getting away..dun like SNAPE!! hmm..wonder if should really think snape is bad..maybe there will be a twist in e next book? but he KILLED Dumbledore..how horrible!! but then kept thinking that bcos Dumbledore is so smart..maybe Snape IS innocent? i mean Dumbledore trusted him THAT much..

hmm..dun like this book all that much..haha..maybe bcos it has a unhappy ending? but think maybe bcos i grew up? or that i dun believe such stuff anymore? it's ok for entertainment..but then after entering into CS..i realise that there's more "real" stuff ard..like press freedom, or racial n religious issues..also..i know that there is more impt stuff in this world like God, Jesus, Holy Spirit, my family n friends....

Wisdom is not accumulation of knowledge.
Having lots of knowledge is just knowledgeable.
It does not make you wise.
Wisdom comes from God.

CS111

2005-10-18T12:13:00.000+08:00

finally presented my CS111 today..but it wasn't good!! to me anyway..presentation itself was ok..but then e Q&A is gone case..was asked lots n lots of questions!! arrgh!!! think our answers were very superficial too..haha..this is e result of last minute work.. :(

but who cares!! IT'S OVER!!! i just kept repeating that unintentionally..was just so happy that it's over..but now had to rush out e report..wonder how are we going to do that!?! haiz.........

anyway..here is 2 of my grp mates: yuan hong n liting..(& me la..) they've become my closest frens in CS..& i thank God for them!!

anyway..gotta write my 107 tv script out..i hate writing! why is there basic media writing? i would be so happy without it! haiz..no matter wat..i still hv to write..so..STOP COMPLAINING!! GO WRITE!!!

2005-10-14T14:23:00.000+08:00

finally can upoad a photo of my table in hall..hee..my fren came to do project..then hv camera with her..so uploaded into my com!! so happy!! haha..it's not very very neat la..but well..it's MY table!!

incase you're wondering who's that on my laptop screen..that's 官恩娜 Ella Koon, a hk actress who acted in 酒店风云 aka Revolving Doors of Vengeance as 开心 Happy..think she's very pretty!!
anyway..i'm supposed to finish up my ppt slides..shall write next time..

Thank God For...

2005-10-10T15:56:00.000+08:00

Thank you, Lord, for everything!!

Thank you, Lord, for my family..
Thank you daddy, for always letting me know you love us in ur small little ways even though we always grumble abt ur other ways..
Thank you mummy, for always busy working so that we need not worry abt bills & stuff even when you feel unwell..
Thank you mer air, for always treating me to sakae & letting me know you care even when you have to pay ur own sch fees..
Thank you berber, for giving me allowance every month & spending less on urself so that others in e family are satisfied..
Thank you granny, for cooking n washing n cleaning n doing everything just so that we can relax & enjoy even when ur leg hurts & nv complaining abt serving us..
Thank you 姑姐, for always treating me as if i am ur own, treating me to meals that you know i cant afford, & always caring for e 3 of us since young..
Thank you biaojie, for guiding me n treating me like a younger sis, both at hm, outside or at wk & all e happy n enjoyable times together, whether exercising or tvb-ing..
Thank you 叔叔, for doting on me when i was young, & still cares for us even as ur son is growing up..
Thank you 婶婶, for caring for us, even though you dun say out loud, but i hear it in ur heart..
Thank you jeremy, for bringing so much fun & laughter in our lives, & continue being e child that we'll all love & dote on..
Thank you to all my relatives, esp my mother's side, for being there when we needed it, yet nv looking down on us & continue to dote on me & my sisters..

Thank you, Lord, for my friends..

Thank you nengneng, for being like family to me, for being e best neighbour i could ever have, for being e fren that let me be myself, for always being there for us, for all e fun we had, at ur hse(old or new)/my hse/everywhere that we go together!!!

Thank you pri sch frens..for e innocent times where we enjoy all sorts of games with no worry in our minds..
Thank you jiahui, jiayan & binlee..for being my best friends in P5/6..esp jiayan..for treating me as buddies till today..
Thank you ian, for always sending me home if we go out together..& e bus ride chats in sec sch..
Thank you fanny, for being funny & bring happiness in my life..
Thank you peggy, for those inside jokes we know that e rest do not..

Thank you sec sch frens..for my happiest sch days memories..where no worries can be found..
Thank you to all my sec 1 n 2's classmates..though i'm not listing u guys, u all played a role in what i've become..
Thank you 4 Noisy N..for my most fun times in Cedar..where 3N/4N is e most happenning..& thanks for tolerating all e crappiness from this assistant monitress..
Thank you peishan, for being e fren that i now cannot live without..for being one who i can comfort n be comforted by..
Thank you doreen & stephanie, for being my classmates for 4yrs..& tolerating with my nonsense..
Thank you to those who always stay in during recess for e fun singing christian songs, or gossiping abt teachers..

Thank you jc frens..for putting up with me not being much with e class & putting up with my laziness..
Thank you jane, that we've become closer frens from when we were in cedar..& still is now in uni..
Thank you cynthia, for always so patiently teaching me, or if not, lending me ur wk so that i will not be scolded..
Thank you isa, for always making me laugh..& accompanying me in doing all e wk for mr foo..
Thank you huiyi, for e meaningful chats on bus rides to n from sch..n being e most logical person in class besides me..haha..
Thank you sunxu, for making me laugh also..& all ur drawings of pigs to entertain me..
Thank you shuyuan, for being my roommate in uni, & taking care of me while i take care of u too..
Thank you sue ann, for sharing my faith, & fellowship together during classes or breaks..
Thank you to e guys, for treating me as a fren, & know that i'm more logical than e rest of e girls..haha..
special thanks to yanwei..for being e entertainment for all of us...regardless whether we criticise you or not..
also to chihao..for being e one guy who knows enuf to smile & laugh at issues with me..that e rest of e class know not of..

Thank you ntu frens, for sharing e interest with me in CS, & hoping to get to know u guys better..
Thank you felda, camellia, aveline, yuan hong & liting..for becoming my closest frens in CS..
Thank you xuelin & yuanhong..for sharing e common interest in TVB shows.. :p

Thank you, Lord, for my bballer frens..
Thank you cedar bballers, for letting me find passion for bball, where we endure trainings with no complains but with enthusiaism & might..loving every single bit of trainings..
Thank you mag, for being there when i needed it & understanding me always..i'll be here for you too..
Thank you j.lee, for all e times we study in sch together, & our aim to be last to leave sch..
Thank you zubaidah, for being my best partner..& e chemistry that we have on court..
Thank you usha, for always lending me a hand to lean on when we go out shopping..& being my crappy partner in class..
Thank you wenting, for letting me go ur hse often, & e fun we had at ur hse..& always maintaining this wonderful friendship despite everything that changes ard us..
Thank you yos, for being my cedar+vj bball mate & all e fun n happiness that you bring into my live..continue to shine for God ya?
Thank you xiang, for listening to me & nv finding me irritating..
Thank you ting, for understanding my situation, & encouraging admist ur own troubles..
Thank you ally, for sharing my faith, & guiding n fellowshipping with me..
Thank you mayling, for trying to listen, & make me think positively..
Thank you jialing, for entertaining me, & e times we had together on buses/mrts/playing bball at 108/gg jogging b4 wk/at ur hse..
Thank you hanyu, for bringing me into hall, & tolerating all e times i disappeared n not turn up for hall events..
Thank you lingling, for guiding me this blur pt guard, & bearing with e atrocious "entertainment food" with no complain..
Thank you violet, for being a gd captain, & showing me what passion for bball is really abt..
Thank you may, for all e lessons u gave, e chats we had at my hse or urs, & e jogs we went together..
Thank you amy, for encouraging me whenever i feel like giving up..i can still remember that scene clearly in my mind!!

Thank you, Lord, for all my teachers..
Thank you Ms Chan & Mrs Quek, for being my best teachers in CPS..
Thank you Mrs Allison Lim, for being more than a teacher..for being my fren & sister in Christ, & listen to my troubles & give me advices..& being there for me till today..
Thank you Ms Hor aka Mrs Tan, for sharing ur faith, for praying for me, & letting me know that you care..
Thank you Ms Chiam, Ms Tan & Mr Sim, for willingly(actually..maybe not..) be our main gossips in class..
Thank you Ms Ding & Mr Teo, for teaching e maths so patiently so that i can do well for 'A's...
Thank you Mr Young, for putting up with this GP rep, who cannot score well in GP for nuts..

Thank you Coach Ong, for teaching me all e basics of bball, & giving me lots of chances in matches in cedar..
Thank you Coach Tattoo, for teaching me more of bball, & willing to bear with all e mistakes that i made that had cost us championship..

Thank you, Lord, for everything..all that i mentioned, & all that i didn't..

P.S.: it's too long a list to continue...

Thank God

2005-10-10T14:15:00.000+08:00

Pastor was preaching today that we should thank God for all the blessings in our lives, regardless of whether we know of them anot..our blessings are so much in abundance that we tend to forget them..Thanksgiving should not be done only on thanksgiving day, but every single day..if you want miracles in ur life, simply ask & thank God for it..

In John 6, the bread & fishes did not multiply because Jesus touched them or whatsoever..the multiplication only happened bcos Jesus thank God for them! & what's even more amazing is that the food kept mutiplying "as much as they want"! God is just so great! As long as there is demand, God will provide, & provide in abundance!! Praise God!!!

You know, we're all taught naturally to have negative thoughts, so much so that when we look at things & surroundings, we tend to spot out the faults & bad things..but HEY! awake up!! why are we doing that? why is the world deciding what's beautiful, what's right or wrong for you? it's YOUR LIFE!!! e devil always points to things that we dun have to make us dissatisfied..but hey..Look at what you have & appreciate them..blessings are in much more abundance than curses, if there is even one in the first place..

Thank you Lord, for everyone & everything in my life. Thank you for giving them to me, & showing me all e love & grace that You've so freely given. Thank you for sending Jesus Christ to die for me, so that i am a new creation & all blessings are for me to receive & receive & receive!!
Thank you that Jesus came to remove my sins, not just to cover them like in the old testament. Thank you that Jesus, You came for me, to be my friend, my provider, my strength, my fortress, my refuge...my everything!!! Thank you Holy Spirit for guiding me, & giving me peace that ppl of the world do not know of. Thank you Jesus. Amen.

hardworking me! ;p

2005-10-07T11:00:00.000+08:00

haven blog for a while..was being a hardworking girl..haha..

handed in 104 2nd assignment last friday..& guess wat? my grp got an "A-" for it..so now i have "B" & "A-"..which means average out to a "B+"..hope i'll do well for final exam..

played badminton on monday with biaojie, diana, sandra & kok leng again..haha..it was more of a laughing session than an exercising session..kok leng is so comical! his "darlie" smile just makes you feel happy..haha..

played street ball challenge bball 3 on 3 on tuesday, with lingling, hanyu & wenting(from mjc) as my teammates..very long nv touch ball..super rusty..we lost..but then nvm..cos we're like e "happiest" team there..cos we meant to play for e fun to enjoy playing bball..

had my 101 quiz yesterday..praying that i'll do well..haha..din really study much..but praise God for being lenient on me..though e 5 fill-in-the-blanks questions are screwed..i shld at least confirm 5 marks for e 10 marks essay question..hee..why? cos the 5 points were the options for one of the mcq questions!! haha..smart me! flipped back to e mcq qns to find..haha..

finally handed in my 102 report!! had my presentation last week..& amazingly KK said we made a good link..then today was to hand in the report..rushed it out this morning..hee..started at ard 9pm and do until 430am!! Thank God for all of you who tried & entertain me to keep me from falling asleep..in particular..val, hanyu, ally & lingling!! THANKS!! anyway..i even went to buy coffee at like 2am to make myself stay awake..but then like not very effective..think ally worked better to keep me awake..haha..

finally decorated sy's noticeboard for her..hee..all e comic strips..looks quite nice la..hopes she like it.. ;p

had my 111 meeting in my room..& think at least we made some progress..hope we can finish everything in this one week ahead!! pray for me, man!!

after they left..i swept & mopped our dirty floor!! haha..it seems clean..but actually..think we very long nv clean le..so now got a nice clean room to sleep in.. yeah!

was supposed to go for BS tonight..but after meeting ard 630..couldn't rush to suntec in time..so not gg..if tmr lec end early..i'll rush down..can't wait to hear more n more about God & his goodness!!

yawns..feeling sleepy le..but my hair not dry yet..shld do something useful..shall write my next issue of Entertainment Food... ;p

2005-09-29T03:55:00.000+08:00

haiz..what is this world coming to?

1st , e bloggers were arrested for racist issues..
now students get caned..
(story at http://newpaper.asia1.com.sg/news/story/0,4136,95139,00.html)

it's wrong for them to do so..i agree..esp e racist one cos S'pore is multi-racial..but e teacher one is so ridiculous to me!!

in e teacher incident..i seriously think that is not a very serious offence..yes, they are disrespectful to the teachers..but hey, which student isn't? when you were young..esp in sec sch times..you tend to talk a lot abt ur teachers..right? maybe in last time when there was no blogs, students write in letters to each other or in their diaries..is that an offence too? if back then teachers look thru e students' diaries..will they be caned too? but isn't e teacher at fault 1st?he/she invaded e student's privacy..similarly..now..teachers go all e way to search for students' blogs..issit that not ethnical too??

if students complain abt you..maybe there's something wrong with you? also..if they dun talk abt you on e blog, but in class when you're not ard..isn't that wrong too?? 对吗??

2005-09-28T15:43:00.000+08:00

saw this short film in CS107 today..think it's quite interesting..
http://www.broom.org/epic/
go watch it..it's only 8 mins..
it's talking abt e future of e digital world..
quite funny..but who knows..
maybe that will really happen..

we're living in a unpredictable world..
everything n anything changes all e time..
only e Lord will never change..
Amen.

badminton

2005-09-27T13:49:00.000+08:00

went to play badminton at SRC just now with 表姐 and her frens..
diana, sandra, kok leng & dawson..

haha..so weird for them to book a court when they're not in here studying..except douglas who's still a yr3 studying civil engineering..but diana n sandra are ntu alumni..n they stayed in hall 13 when they're here too! so 巧!! haha..

anyway..so happy to exercise again..haha..thou i think tmr morn i'll probably wont be able to write! cos my hand will be trembling from e ache..hahaha...it really feels good to sweat it out!! wanna go again soon!!

anyway..after that..biaojie n her frens went to bathe..so this guy-dawson, help to send me back to hall using diana's car..haha..he haven drove in 1yr+ !! thank God nothing happened! i'm back in hall safe n sound..haha..anyway..it feels good to be driven ard..haha...next time..i shall get a car of my own! currently like e Nissan March..looks nice! but then..i haven even start taking driving lessons..haha...

AIMS

2005-09-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

aims....................................

aims to not sleep tonight to do all my work.

aims to finish 102 slides by 2am.
aims to write half of 102 report by 4am.
aims to do research for 104 by 7am.
aims to go jogging before gg for lessons.
aims to not fall asleep in class!

aims to slim down by Nov.
aims to cut hair again.
aims to finish all my readings before exams.
aims to stop slacking!

aims to find back e motivation to study like in Cedar.
aims to sleep only a few hours again.
aims to do well.

aims..........can i attain them??!!!!!

Missing Romeo

2005-09-26T13:45:00.000+08:00

Went to watch hall production at Jubilee Hall on friday..go n support my senior-lingling!! it's a musical called "Missing Romeo"..not bad a production..e plot n music was quite good..but down points..started like 20mins late..and e performers were a bit soft..cannot really hear wat they're singing n saying..esp those shakesphere lines..super duper cannot catch..but on e whole..nice play!
too bad ling never sing!! shall make her sing to me some day..haha..found that she can really act..but hearing her speak chinese on stage sounds different from hearing when we chat..haha..anyway..her performance was great! one of e most audible performer too! also..e most funny part was when she had to slap her bf in e show..it was a really loud tight slap! why i said that? cos i was sitting in e last row in Jubilee Hall n i can still hear a LOUD slap sound!! hope e guy's ok..haha..

that's me & e pretty woman-LingLing!!!

this is me & another beautiful woman-Hanyu!!

and finally..e 3 of us!!!

2005-09-21T15:10:00.000+08:00

hmm..a lot happened this past week..

work most days..then slack my time away watching canto drama.. ;p shld be doing research n do my readings..now hv to pia...... :(

deaconess lian --> pastor lian
deacon chin --> pastor chin
brother darren --> pastor darren
brother louis --> asso. pastor louis

cynthia n ally both flew to LSE le..gonna miss them man..they're two of my closest frens in vj..

this are e ppl who went to send cyn off..
haha..she made us leave early before she go into e gate so that she won't feel that sad..

haiz..i wanna go london too!!! away from this island..e more lectures i go to in CS102:journalism..e more i think s'pore is weird n restricted..shall not go in depth in case i get charged under the sedition act too..

but then hor..i actually think that all races and religion can live harmoniously! i'm a christian, but i won't force my ideas on others, nor will my frens of other religion force their ideas on me..same with race..i love my malay n indian frens! dun hv foreign frens..so cannot say..but then..maybe cos my sec sch class was super united..so i can really mix well with them! there was obviously more chinese in e class, but malays and indians a lot too..almost half e class..and there was definitely no problem for e class..i miss 4N man! shall try n organise a gathering this year end..even if i have to pay all e $$..think i'll still organise..now that i'm in uni, my bunch of closest frens from cedar consists of me, mag, j.lee, kj & a few of e loners..FYI, e loners are a mixed of malay n indians..usha, sameema, vidya, zubaidah, aisyah, ain and...some more..haha...i forgot...

honestly, after all that S'pore had gone thru, e maria hertoge riots n e 1964 race riots, i seriously duno why ppl now cannot live in harmony..why do they hv such thots? i seriously thot of asking one of my fren that..why does he hv such thots?but too bad..i'll always tell him to behave and not hv such unwanted opinions.. :)

also..i used to ask why ppl can't mix well with their neighbours, esp. in HDB flats..cos i used to have this family staying beside me that was so so lovely! haha..neng..happy to hear that? anyway..it's true..cos we go in n out of each other's hse just like it's our own..we're like a big family! Love them man! but too bad they moved..but still, we keep in contact n when thay 1st moved, me n berber when to her hse to stay over! haha..happy times!!! but then..the new owners..rented e hse to some taiwanese i think..then they're always not home! i dun hv anything against taiwanese..in fact i wanna go there! (no $$ la..) haiz..they're always not hm..n even if they are, e door and windows are shut..so tightly that i think is impossible..sometimes i even think if they're still staying there..my family love to leave e door open! just e metal gate is locked..so that i can see ppl walking pass..learn in CS111: S'pore Society that e corridors are supposed to be e most basic space in a HDB community for ppl to interact..HOW TO INTERACT WHEN PPL DUN COME OUT? so so weird man! haiz....

can things go back to e past so that i can still be free to do happy stuffs?

2005-09-19T15:42:00.000+08:00

BROKE!!!

bank account of $1700++ just 5days ago..
-$710.80 for sch fees
-$590.50 for hall fees
-$$ for food
-$$ for tithing
Left with less then $300..

xiang, i want e ipod..but i got no $$..haiz........

shan't dwell on it..need my one-week-empty hostel bed...

2005-09-19T15:08:00.000+08:00

haven blog for a week..recess week..but haven been studying.. :(
work most days..then spend e rest of e time watching tv..hee...but it's very nice..
it's called "Unstruck Of Time" i think..隔世追凶...nice show..i haven finish watching one..left e last 2 episodes.. :(

anyway..am super tired now..will write tonight..haha..cos it's morning le..

"Jesus COULD condemn the woman, but He WOULD not.
The pharisees WOULD condemn the woman, but they COULD not."
-Pastor Prince on the woman who was caught in adultery & brought by the pharisees to Jesus to trick Him-

2005-09-19T14:45:00.000+08:00

Your Blog Should Be Blue

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B! B! B!

2005-09-08T14:07:00.000+08:00

haha..i got B for my first PPC assignment! think it's not bad..haha..although everyone hv that grade too i think...but who cares?hee...

but then..assignment 2 is due end of this month! arrghh...so fast..haiz..now to finish?

CS101--quiz ended..wonder how i'll do.. :(
CS102--presentation in 3weeks..still no concrete progress.. :(
CS104--assignment due in 3weeks too..haven even start.. :(
CS107--handed in my 1st article..hope she understand it.. :(
CS111--presentation in 5weeks..haven find info.. :(

work..work..& more work..
haven even do e readings..
can i even rest in that so called recess week?
dun think i can rest at all..
meetings to go to..
readings to complete..
information to research on..
work at RGBC..

Lord, pls give me strength to go thru all these smoothly n peacefully..& that i can work thru them effectively n without obstacles..let me not be tired out..Amen.

2005-09-06T16:02:00.000+08:00

got all these photos from biaojie..taken think last year or last last year..haha..when i was slimmer..now so so fat!! :( haha..
the 3rd generation in my family..
sheryl(my cousin), jeremy(cousin),
mer air(eldest sis), ber ber(2nd sis),
me! (from left)

group photo..but got a number not
there to celebrate jeremy's bday!

slimmer me(in red),
biaojie(in blue),
jeremy(in yellow),
mer air(in white)

haha..i finally discovered how to upload pics..haha..shall upload more next time..

2005-09-06T15:30:00.000+08:00

FIRSTLY:
i just wrote my 1st article in my mass comm life!!!
haha..it's an assignment for basic media writing..but still..i wrote it all by myself..with biaojie's help in grammar..haha..and sy say it really sound like news article..so i more or less succeeded in writing ba...hahaha....and it's due 16hrs later..haha..

anyway..why didn't junyang win????!!!!he is so so so so so so so much better than wl la!
i like "guardian angel"!! very nice song..anyone hv full version? anyway he sing "wu ding" with xinhui very touching too..so much "better looking" than with "you-know-who"..haha...can't wait for him to release his album..thinking of gg for e superstar concert..but no $$$.. :(

i wanna watch circus too!! anyone wanna sponsor me?!?!

Relieved!!!

2005-09-01T11:17:00.000+08:00

Yeah! CS101 quiz is finally over! studied for like 3days..haha..but was slacking until like today..anyway..e quiz was supposed to be 75mins..but i finished in 25mins..haha..it's not that e paper was easy..it's just that it's all MCQ n True/False kind of questions..so choosing is not very hard...just that e choices are quite close..so hopefully i got them correct! ;p

anyway..hadta write a newspaper article on sports/sports culture in NTU..due next tues..Arrgh!! i dun like to write! how? hmm...duno how to start either.. :(

1st filming of my life!!!

2005-08-30T16:11:00.000+08:00

today was ntu's 50th anniversary..n i was filming e celebrations for my cs111 project..
so fun!! but very very tiring!!!

after e lectures this morn..went to get my laptop--Fijitsu S7020--which i'm using now..hee..love it man! haha...then went for meeting..then went with mag to orchard to celebrate her bday with e cedar ppl....ate at wheelock nydc again....well..hope she enjoyed e "lunch" at ard 4pm...after that they went to swensens i think while i made my way back to ntu to film e anni celebration...

anyway..came back n started filming with yuanhong outside nanyang audi..managed to film Rui En singing..you know..her voice is really not bad lei..she sang live..n it was good! now like her songs..haha...

then was chase away by e sercurity ppl cos PM Lee was arriving..so stupid la..we're on 2nd level where it was quite far away from e stage..but still chase us away...hai wo must find somewhere else to film...somemore i'm not tall...had to compete with others on e ground level to catch good shots... :(

but anyway..after that say PM Lee..but he was very far from me!! cannot see properly...then after cutting e cake for ntu..he left...

then.....i filmed F.I.R!!!
Faye was power man! duno why some ppl tell me in e past that she was not gd at live performances...i think she's really good...e 3 of them were really dynamic in their music! really like their songs...think i'll go get e 2nd album too!!! anyway shall figure out how to upload e video onto my com...now it's on e DV cassette tape....anyone knows?hanyu?? hee...tell me k?

anyway..they sang like 6 songs...n i was filming for like 4hrs?! so tiring!! my feet hurts!! had a hard time walking back to hall man!! but think it's really fun..

currently..falling in love with "tv broadcast" cos i really enjoyed filming..thou i'm not taking that module this sem..i love it! ;p shalll enjoy it next sem man!! haha..but then..i haven experience "radio/sound broadcast"..so maybe i'll change my mind after that...hahaha.....